Crossroads

I think we all come to this point in our lives, the place where we stand still, gazing around, wondering what comes next. I just turned 55, and I find myself in that place, in a nexus, with paths radiating out from me in all directions. And I haven't figured out in which direction I should move.

It's a puzzle to me right now. I know more what I don't want to do than what I actually do want. I go through my daily routine thinking that there has to be something more, and the days slip by...

When you reach my age, you start to come to an understanding of the finite-ness of your life, and begin to question its very meaning. According to all the sages of the past, this is a common step on our journey, yet it is very uncomfortable after years of walking familiar roads.

Here I am at the crossroads, standing still, unable to move as yet, my feet unwilling and confused...

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Permalink Reply by Char on April 18, 2009 at 10:38pm: Mundane, yes... I feel you on that one. As you well know, I am standing there with you. I feel so unsettled, discontent. A lot has to do with my health right now, and I do realize that, but it is not all about that. I feel as if I should be doing something new, different. I can't really explain the feeling.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Fionn oMurchu on April 18, 2009 at 11:28pm: You put your finger right on it, Love; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Gwendolynn on April 18, 2009 at 11:29pm: And all the pies one has missed, too...Lady Holly....:); ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Dale on April 18, 2009 at 11:53pm: What do you do when you feel you have done everything?; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Gwendolynn on April 19, 2009 at 12:30am: I don't think I'll ever feel that way...I oft times think that there's so little time to do what I want...lol There's a quilter's saying "Sew many quilts, sew little time." and I find that is the case with me.. I love to do so many things that I don't think I'll ever get to the point where I've done it all. Good question Lord Dale..I wish I had an answer for you.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by d'Arqstar on April 19, 2009 at 2:47am: Your feet are unwilling and confused??? You obviously need a swift kick in the pants! You KNOW that it doesn't matter which path you choose or which direction you go...one is never lost until one stops moving! Remember that you are NOT your body, that's just a vessel in which you happen to be at the moment and it will change again and again before you're done with it. IF you feel there's something more that you're missing??? FIND it! Chart new courses, try new things, get out there and experience them. Make yourself a "bucket" list if you feel so inclined.Stop thinking about what you don't want to do and concentrate on those things you do...those things you've always dreamed about but felt were too extravagant or silly...embrace life and have fun while you can. You'll never be any younger than you are now. Pick up those confused feet and MOVE! LOL! Just ask yourself...Why not???; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Fionn oMurchu on April 19, 2009 at 8:41am: I needed that :); ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by darkrose0486 on April 19, 2009 at 3:47am: My dad is 62 and he still is young and kicking I don't think you get "old" until your 90 at least. my gram was kicking until she pasted at 92. So please don't see this as an ending just as more fun times and freedom you'll find your way in time. Blessed Be.

Ps. I'll be 23 this May; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Seodanrot on April 19, 2009 at 3:52am: I guess it's time for a journey within if the mundane life is a bore just create own path inside yourself then when you return it will enrich your mundane life and the path will be clear. Trust yourself, your heart and your instincts they will not steer you wrong. You will have your answer as it lays within your being.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Valkyrieraven on April 20, 2009 at 5:57am: I am 52 and I know what you mean. I have myself come to this crossroads and have turned and looked all around and thought what now? I went within myself and became a hermit for a time, seeking within, reading, looking at the stars at night and walking thru the woods. Gradually I came back out and started to try new things, this was a little scary at times! I have now accepted that I stillhave so much to learn, so many new people to meet and new places to see. I have made some wonderful new friends and have embarked on some new adventures.
I guess my advice would be, take your time and dont dispare! You will find what and where you are meant to do and go.
May you be blessed on your new journey!

Raven )O(; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Fionn oMurchu on April 20, 2009 at 7:41am: The problem right now is that everything I'm doing in the so-called "mundane" just seems to suck the energy right out of me. It's all so meaningless and vapid. I'll spare you the discomfort of my personal life, but that's an issue as well. The one who should be supporting me emotionally is treating me like I'm a burden, and it's hard to function under these conditions. I know I'll get through this, but I just can't seem to see straight right now. It pisses me off...; ▶ Reply to This