LOOKING FOR GUIDANCE

Looking for guidance:

I was born in a catholic family and raised in a catholic school until high. It is known in my family that some of them have contacts with our ancestors and/or spirits. I got that gift too but it is hard for my mother and sisters to accept it, I’m the freaky and creasy of the family.

How do I now it? My father died when I was 11 years old. Since my dad died he used to come in my dreams and ask me for help, he was always dress in black until one day I had a dream with him. It has as I was waiting for him in an airport and when I saw him he was dress in white and smiling, he came to hug me and the emotion was so much that I couldn’t resist it and woke up crying. Since then I haven’t have a dream of him but when he wants me to know that he is near I can smell the cigarettes that he used to smoke and feel a sensation as if he was touching me.

I love nature, love to go hiking and bread the air and touch the trees and I talk to the animals. In my street I was the nurse, every time some kid got hurt they came to my house first so I could see their “bubu” and get it clean, and then they will go to their houses. When they found a bird or any little animal hurt they came to my house to see how I can cure it. If it died we made a ceremony and buried them.

Sometimes I’m reading, working, sleeping or doing other things and I hear voices (not nuts) and they give me messages for people that I know and/or how to alert them of something or spells.

WHY HAVE I WRITTEN ALL THIS? Because I will like to see how you can help me go through the right path I read books of solitary wicca, green witch, done ceremonies and still don’t feel that I’m in the correct path. I feel empty as when I used to go to church.

I love magic and I know that I have the power to do it. I make candles and have done candle magic and knot magic too. I have herbs and I use them in the candles as aromatherapy and in rituals. All of them have done their purpose for good and I feel good when I see the results.

Some people have told me that I’m a natural witch because I can calm them, help in a situation and change things for good.

PLEASE I’m asking guidance so I can find what really I am. Any help will be appreciated.

Blessing to all from my heart.

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Permalink Reply by Mykha Solitude on October 26, 2009 at 9:53pm: I have to thank you all for your comments. You have help me to search more and find my real path even if it is a combination on 2 o 3 of them.

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Permalink Reply by SunriseButterfly on October 26, 2009 at 10:16pm: I dont know if what i have to say will be of any help but they way i found my faith was a lot of reading and experianceing. I read lots of religiou books and went to churches of all sorts of faiths. I started searching when i was 14 and decoverd who i was when was 16. I'm lucky to have achieved this so young. Some people spnd their whole lives looking. Anyway learn about religion as uch as you can. You'l know when you have found the right one. Maybe try a diffrent branch of wicca but if wicca makes you feel empty its not for you.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Nodoka Phoenix on October 26, 2009 at 10:35pm: Greetings,
You sound so lost sister. You seem close to finding what you want... but not quite. Just know there are many, many paths and it may not be Wicca or green Witch or etc that is meant for you. It took me a few years to find my path, and when I did it was an abscure ancient Japanese religion that I fell in love with. Research, read, and just enjoy letting your heart take you where you need to go.
As far as your gift, I have the same, and I know it can be both comforting and burdonsome. My wife is Catholic and does not quite understand/feel comfortable/like all the things I do, but at least she loves me enough that she deals/copes with it and accepts it to the best of her ability. I wish you luck with your family.
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Permalink Reply by h2o2go on November 1, 2009 at 7:37pm: The best part about being an adult is choice. I've chosen to dump the old stuff in my head (the programming from others that creates my habits and guilt) and be me. Yes it's easier to say than do but I'm using a few tools including subliminals...I made a movie that I play "underneath the screen I'm typing on".

I love the way you can change what your subconscious has to work with using subliminals – they’re one part of an integrated approach to change.

I've improved so much of my life in terms of self confidence, who I attract, my income - yes I've got a way to go but it's all changing for the better. Making my subliminal Mind Movie took 3 weeks and made me cement my ideas into a visual format. Playing the movie as a background on the screen is massive reinforcement.

My subliminal movie allows me to repeatedly see myself with what I want (one of the big things for me is to be happy for others when I see them with the things I want)

Repetition is the key word – I affirm my future (and my true self) every day in as many forms as I can….

I also recorded myself describing my subliminal on my phone (using Audacity, I have the music with me saying like how grateful I am to be me etc from my movie) and play it and other affirmations back as I go to work on the bus. I so smile when I “hear” my subliminal….

I listen to great speakers (Wayne Dyer is on the bus with me), read great books and

- know WHY you're doing it and NEVER forget it....it's all about who you REALLY want to be and feel yea?? So if you want to be sitting on the same seat in 10 years time - its totally fine to do nothing now. What fires my focus and "mad dog with a bone" determination is time and my kids.

- LOVE YOURSELF FIRST and know why you're changing what you've been programmed with. It’s great your parents etc love you - but NOW I AM A MAN – and it’s the time for me to spring clean that old crap in my head. Making and playing my subliminal focuses my mind again and again and again.

- and if you're lazy like me, get REAL mad about that old programming from others creating your habits and KNOW YOU WONT STOP till it's gone and you're free to create YOUR OWN REALITY

- and most important - enjoy the process of change and celebrate each victory....

For me, making and watching my subliminal movie is to see tomorrow and I FEEL SUPERCHARGED BECAUSE OF IT!!!!!!; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Shadow Moon on November 1, 2009 at 9:17pm: I'm just starting on the path too and all I can say is read every book you can find on wicca, ask questions, join podcasts, there is no lack of information out there for you.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by CrystalStorms on November 1, 2009 at 9:39pm: First of all, it sounds like your father always encouraged you. What better way to do that than to ask his child for help? Perhaps your father is waiting on you this time to ask him that exact question, when you dream lets look for an opportunity to ask your father this question.

Also, it always helps to understand that being a naturally talented and gifted witch there are many paths within your own soul which you can search. Find things that appeal to you, specifically to yourself. Understand working magick brings results when you know what appeals to your spiritual side. Herbs, trees, plants, water(s) - oceanic - lake - river - distilled. Fruits and vegetables that you can use in other ways. I'm telling you these things because I felt the same way. To me when you are hungering for a dark art or the dark occult workings, you must be sure its what you CAN do, and something you CAN maintain. By filtering through all these workings youve done yourself many favors already, but what you need is self -enchantment and alot of it.you; ▶ Reply to This