All Beliefs are Welcome Here!
Hi Melissa, I am sorry for your loss. How long were you two together? I ask this because therapists claim that however long you knew someone, it will take half that length of time to get over their loss. (that should give you some idea of the time-scale needed for healing)
I would advise you to keep busy, so you don't dwell on it. Other than that just give it time. The first 12 months are the hardest as you experience the first birthdays, anniversaries, public holidays etc after your loss. But you WILL come through this in time. *Hugs*
I don't know what I'd do if I lost my spouse. There is really nothing that anyone can say that will make this issue any better; only time will help; for now, just do what you feel like doing in order to feel better; don't stress about having a family.
You will always miss your partner and you can take solace in that your partner is in Caer Sidi a place of souls which Arianrhod takes there on her ship the Oar Wheel to reincarnate after eighty years of blissful forgetfulness. You will both meet again one day as death is not the end just a new beginning of life and experiences.
As you're a daughter of the goddess in my pantheon of the Idaean Gaia/Aphrodite, you can commune with Aphrodite by inviting her love into your heart, and in meditation/prayer, you then focus on this area which is prominently surrounded by your breasts, and you can feel the goddess within you. Listen to what she has to tell you. What is she saying to you about your partner and the relationship you had and how you feel now? Meditate on this, and see where your thoughts they take you. You may be comforted, surprised or shocked by what she has to tells you. But they will be earnest, and closer to how you truly feel and will give you the direction you're looking for to move forward.
Melissa, I just saw this post. First, I am so very sorry to read your message. Loss is so difficult. The memories, lost dreams, hopes, and now insecurity, confusion, anger and the deep and broad question WHY?
I want you to know that I lost my wife and my daughter a few years ago - not to death but to divorce. Divorce is actually worse than death because the person still lives and the rejection is constant versus death which is final
I would offer to focus on all that was positive and good. How did your fiancé improve you, and challenge you?
How did you change as a result of that person being in your life? Allow that to be a daily reminder of how you can honor their investment in you.
Will you share your thoughts, please?