Hey, all. Yeah, it's my Birthday. Perhaps there are a few here left who still recall me and will offer soem well-wishing...This is is a day I usually dread, for various reasons: it falls in Summer, whose heat and humidity just slay me, but while I'm totally fine with my assignation to the Zodiac of Cancer the crab (it fits me to a tee, Cancer's profile), somehow or other I almost invariably have a crises (or 12) to tend to around the weeks preceding "the big day" - crises of either financial, romantic, creative and overall ontological natures, or many of them combined. Life-stuff. HEAVY Life-stuff. Everyone has their cross to carry, true, but still not everyone's weight is the same.
Wow: this year's B-day has been pretty good. I feel freer, more open, I dressed up a little (in my snakeskin jacket, no less! :p) nicer than my current bummy self lately, heh. And I'm gifting MYSELF with more of my Novel writing. And, ideally, gifting the World, such as those who already have loved what I've shown them of it.
The only weird thing is, and my cousin had to remind me of this, is that for some reason I thought I was turning 37, but in fact, it’s 38. Kind of a strange thing to me; Ive never forgotten my age before (well, perhaps as a really really young child). And I don't have much fear of aging per se so I doubt I was sunconsiously trying to be younger. I've come to a fair reckoning of how to balance my maturity with my inner goof-ball (Ah-huh-huh-, Ah-huh...Hey, Beavith...He thaid BALL, huh-huh...)
Another recent gift I’ve given myself is a better rapport with the Gods Hypnos and Morpheus, to sleep more soundly (I do) and dream more amazingly (verily I do! ) Try it! It works.
And as the best Mages/Mystics and other Holy Men and Women have discovered, you increase the clarity, speed and integrity of whatever you choose to manifest in Life - a healing, a new car or house, more Magickal tools or Wisdom, etc. - when you are fully or at least extremely full of True Faith in the Work, as well as can picture the desired outcome *whilst still being prepared that the Manifestation may still not appear the exact same way on the Physical plane as it did in your Mind.* Go with the Flow.
One last word on this: The same is true re: Gratitude. You can't fool the Universe/God/Your Own Mind that you believe what you don't, or can get what you want, if, say, you dont think you deserve or will get it. You have to Know, and you have to be Thankful In Advance. Even Jesus taught these basics.
Sorry for the digression, but it being my special day, I'm-a-gonna pontificate a little, and yer gonna dig it! :P
So back to the Birthday: Mine, Yours, Anyone's. I think that's the one thing I agree with about LaVeyan Satanism: making your B-Day the most scared Holiday of the year. I sure try to. (I also have what I call my "Occult Birthday" on Halloween, but that's a whole 'nother post).
As I just said to a friend (my sister-in-law, actually -or also) …[W]hat finer custom could we have created than honoring annually the day of one's creation? In my case, not so much with presents, but some Peace, some insights, renewal, and introspection.
Toys and gadgets are not very interesting to me. I’m just glad to get a little drunk, maybe stoned as well and watch “The Monkees.” :)