What once I thought was family...

If anyone remembers, I recently had posted a discussion regarding my Dad's cancer dignosis... these things have ensued since, in the past week...

and yes- i am sure some of it has to do with the stress of a dying member of the family... but MOST of it is because this is just how shallow, vile and controlling these people really are.

FAMILY, I truly have NONE, here...

I have deleted them from my face book account- will do the same for myspace... and all other aspects of my life that I possibly can.

My ""mother"" and I use that term loosely- has obviously told my sister that I had asked my stepdad for his insurance money !! HAH!!!

Friends- I asked a man that I loved and respected if the was anything he needed us to do to help insure that ''mother'' was taken care of once the inevitable happened.....

The ''sister" said that HE had " told everyone that I had "asked for his insurance money" !!!!

then she called me a whore... when she is nothing but an insolent brat- a carbon copy of her own mother... I am so 100% done with those people.

As for my step-dad, -- I have finished there too. Again, I am sorry if he feels bad or hurt in any way-- or in any way misinterpreted our offer to help out with making sure 'mother' was taken care of.....

It hurts but at the same it angers, and relieves...

I am certain that it will not be ended that simply-- they cannot stand to lose any thing in anyway-- at least not without a mud slinging.

I am also angry at myself for letting her push me to my breaking point-- but perhaps-- that is what needed to happen... I have bent, and bent, and bent-- perhaps it was time that these things finally break free.

Light a candle to brighten my spirit, say a prayer for my wounded heart and sprinkle a bit of fairy dust to make me smile again. LOL!

You know what? Real Family is those who love you, care for you-- accept you and do not always have to look at you with thoughts of how they can use you.

Sorry for the rant-- needed to vent... thanks for lending an ear.

and any words of encouragement, acknowledgment, consolation, etc are welcomed...
In fact-- I would really love to hear some other's perspectives....

thank you... diana