Like a lot of people the time around my birthday is used for introspection. Just like continual learning, I continually work on be the person I like best in myself. I have been overweight to some degree most of my adult life, but until this year it didn't really enter my mind as something that was a problem. I am very comfortable with myself, maybe too comfortable. This year it came to me with a bang that I needed a change. As I was eating it I thought "this tastes like crap." Am I grateful or happy that I am eating crap? What on earth is eating crap doing to me? I am a smart woman, I know whole foods are healthier, and I already ate a LOT of healthy whole foods. Some that I didn't even really like.
So I decided to focus on preparing tastier meals, and enjoying them. Now I pay attention to what I am eating and to when my body is fulfilled. If the taste is not keeping my attention, I stop eating it and come back later.
Another thing is that I walk a LOT, so I can spend as much time out of doors as possible. It feeds my soul. I decided that instead of walking each evening, I might try running a little. I love it! I still walk, but now I run too. I feel awesome. I have tons more energy and focus, and I have lost 30 pounds since my birthday!
Am I perfect... NO... I still turn to candy and coffee when I am stressed... but now the better part of my week is healthier, so the balance is met for me.
Thanks for the suggestion! Today at work I shut the door & locked it :) put on my head phones with the music on loud & punched a few times while thinking about the frustration leaving... I felt a little silly at first, but at least the giggling made it better. A longer cord on the head phones is in order, so I can actually move a bit and punch :) and the vending machine missed me this afternoon too :)