Camille, what is/was going on for you is you are/were feeling the fury. It’s OK; it is just your inner warrior spirit calling you. I had the same when I was young however I also had an everyday violent life, so it may not have been as disturbing to me. These violent dreams eventually settled into one:for me it took place in an empty white room where I was meditating and someone/s would come to me and hand me a weapon (anything from a sword to a machinegun) and say it is time. Now this dream was not as graphically violent as my earlier dreams however they always came right before a mission.