Saturday night/ Sunday morning I was visited by an "incubus". At first the spirt scared me and I was "running around" the bedroom trying to close and lock all the windows to keep it out, but it just kept opening them and rattleing them. I think at one point it even dragged it's fingernails/claws against the glass. I finally gave up and just sat on the bed waiting for it to come. It's voice was so soothing from the fear that was running through my mind. It wasn't full and solid, but more light and smokey green/blue air swirling about me. It began talking of sweet nonsense and was so sensual it was almost unnerving. It teased my senses with it's words, made me hungry to have what it had to offer. I felt almost powerless and in the back of my mind I was thinking "NO, you are not allowed here!" It never actually "entered" my body so to speak. Somewhere in the distance I heard my kids and fiance' talking and it vanshied.
I didn't telling anyone knowing they don't believe like me.
This was a definite incubus experience. Your incubus is actually a nonphysical entity, and a very loving, compassionate one. Your nonphysical entity is conscious energy, and has no physical form or nerve endings. Therefore, your nonphysical entity is incapable of physically experiencing sex. What happened was that your nonphysical entity was manipulating your mind, making it seem to you that you were having enjoyable sex with someone. From what I have been able to discover through my divinations about incubus and succubus experiences is the reason they occur is your entity's way of getting you more deeply receptive to experiencing a wider variety of sexual experiences.
When we have an encounter with a nonphysical entity while sleeping, the way we react to it depends totally on how receptive we are to how the entity is trying to help us empower ourselves. If we are resisting this helpful influence, we will experience the entity as a threatening influence. If we are being receptive to it, we will experience that same entity as being more angelic.
I will do a tarot card reading for you about this experience. My deck is The Crow's Magick Tarot.
2 of Cups Reversed: Partner, Nexus: Others seek you out.
XV The Devil Upright: Magnetism, Lure. You find yourself attracted to something forbidden, and
this is good.
3 of Wands: Upright: Ingenious, Savvy: You take the measure of something.
2 of Coins Reversed: Cryptic, Mysterious: You explore a mystery.
6 of Cups Upright: Past, Reminisce: Something from your past reemerges into your present.
XI Strength Reversed: Endurance, Fortitude. You endure what there is to endure, but you do not
This is not your first experience with this entity. It has probably visited you before in your dreams in various ways. One interesting thing I am learning about these entities is that they tend to be deities, gods. Full blown gods.