Unmedicated Depressives

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Comment by llunaticraven on November 14, 2009 at 1:01pm

Hello all, sorry I have not been here as much of late, there has been lots going on, life, mom, work, my pagan group, it's a really good thing I am in an up period, 8>.
Thank the Gods for St Johnswort!!!!

Comment by llunaticraven on October 10, 2009 at 8:36pm

I am about an hour outside of Reno on the California side, little place called Susanville.
Love it here, the colors of the high desert, the way the light and shadows play on the hills, even love the dirt, the way it pufs up when you walk and the fact that you can see all these little animal tracks in it every morning. And in less than an hour I am at near 8000 ft in the mountains, so I get the best of both worlds.

Comment by Alastrine Adair on October 9, 2009 at 3:40pm

what part of california will you be traveling? i live in california and was just wondering...

Comment by llunaticraven on October 8, 2009 at 3:27pm

SweetLunacy
Thanks for joining the group, I hope that you will find the support and understanding, we all need, there.
You mentioned dwelling on pain and rerunning all the regrets and mistakes......boy that sounds so fucking familiar. I spent a large number of years strung out on heroin, and I did some pretty awful things to keep that bitch alive, and once I got clean, I spent many years dwelling on those things, regretting what I did to my family and friends, what I did to myself.
I cut off all contact with anyone I knew, I was not there for my mom when she died from cancer, wasn't there for my dad and brother after she was gone, I stole from my husbands family and anyone else I could, I lied, cheated and did whatever I needed to, to feed the beast, it didn't matter in the least who got in my way. I would lie awake at night with all this rolling around in my head, until I wanted to smash my head against a wall to let it all come spilling out.
This is going to sound trite and stupid, but you must learn to let the past go, it is easier said than done, I know this, but you must work at it, it took me years to let go of, the past is dead and gone, nothing you can do or say will ever change any of it, you must accept yourself, as you are with all those flaws, because the person who stands before you in the mirror is made up of all those experiences, I would not change who I am today for anything, not even the chance to go back and do it over. I have come to like the broad who stares back at me from the mirror, and I believe, in time, so will you.
Peace to you,
LlunaticRaven

Comment by SweetLunacy on October 7, 2009 at 10:36am

All of my life people have always been telling me to smile. Even if I wasnt neccassarily sad I just have never been a perky person. I smile when something makes me do it. Not just because. I wouldnt feel like i was acting naturally if I walked around with a big grin all the time.
I am depressed though- today is a good day where i just dont feel like being negative and dwelling on the pain and rerunning the regrets and mistakes and wondering why.... Today i am sort of on a mission to find something to brighten my day or something to use everyday to make me feel a little better.

Comment by llunaticraven on October 1, 2009 at 11:30am

Morning all, short on time, leaving Sat for California, gods, I have a love/hate relationship with traveling. So much to do, so little time to get it done. Crrraaaaappppp!!!

Comment by llunaticraven on September 30, 2009 at 7:32pm

the masks are really easy, I went to a party supply place and got those little plastic, blank party masks, I cover them with plastic wrap and paper mache over them, from there its all up to you, you can paint them, use construction paper to cut out shapes, use silk flowers, feathers, aluminum foil to make shapes that you mache over you can even make a kind of paper clay by runing news print and water in your blender, strain very good, add some white glue, store in a zip lock bag, you can shape this into all kinds of fun stuff, the possibilites are near endless. I have made seasons, elements and for myself this year I am going to do a Raven mask. All you really need is a glue gun, to fix the silks and feathers on, other glues don't set up fast enough.

Comment by Alastrine Adair on September 30, 2009 at 12:54pm

Oh wow how cool. How are you going to make the mask? i would be interested in knowing so maybe we can make masks as well (my daughter and I)

Comment by llunaticraven on September 30, 2009 at 12:50pm

moring all, well i can tell i am on the upswing, the ideas are flowing fast, I have decided to make masks for Samhain, we are having a gathering and I want to make some bases for the kids to play with, but along with that ideas for complete masks are flooding my brain. That and the damned thing just won't SHUT UP at night, I may bitch but it's a good thing, as Martha says 8>

Comment by Alastrine Adair on September 29, 2009 at 3:11pm

I thrive in the colder weather and get the seasonal blues when it is too hot....

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