Libra Sun, Leo Rising, Scorpio Moon (Virgo Sun, Cancer Ascendant, Scorpio Moon in Vedic)
I have been on my magickal path for 20 years and countless lifetimes. I was awakened by long periods of time in the wilderness in my teenage years, taken under the wings of very powerful spiritual mentors and counselors, lived and breathed 24-7 psychological healing and development for 4 years, meditated with intense vision work, learned energy work, had rights passed onto me for the sweat lodge (Crow tradition) at 16, became a life long vegetarian at that time, a junior counselor for teens by 17 (it helps talking to someone who understands trauma, relates, has personal experience instead of rhetoric). I majored in social work with a minor in human and family development later that year, and studied psychology. I worked with children, and special needs children for 5 years, which I also had training for. I then devoted myself to my daughter, now along with my son. While still in my teens, I was drawn to Buddhism, then Hinduism in college, and then Paganism. Highly involved with all three, along with the Native roots to my path, I was initiated as a medicine priestess...but left the path because the training was under very manipulative and toxic people, however intelligent or achieved (there is a strong difference between intelligence and wisdom, and both are essential). I continue the path under Goddess; she didn't want me training under them, in fact, the idea of training a daughter of Kali is blasphemous. Kali truly is my mother, I have done her work by default since childhood, exposing the taint in others around me for destruction and rebirth; even just smiling going along my way, without intention, it still happens and I have learned that I cannot avoid my dharma, even though it would be nice at times. It is not easy work and demands a lot of self sacrifice to battle the egos and demons of others, who without fail, attack and blame me for exposing them...or more for, them revealing themselves. Kali likes sacrifice but values self sacrifice over using the innocent to appease her, she finds that weak because it doesn't involve the suffering of the self necessary to break the ego. With huge amounts of suffering, Kali dragged me through hell to completely break me so I would become completely pure, which I wanted, purity is extremely important to me; I can hardly bear those who are impure because of my sensitivity. I have always felt much safer around the purity of nature and animals than the toxicity of human kind...so I only surround myself with very safe people who are highly evolved. I have learned that I am often vilified by others for my beauty and integrity, and punished for their faults; they project their own negativity onto me, and I tend to project my virtues onto them, and in the innocence at my core, I am repeatedly baffled by the cruelty in others. I can sharply see through the issues people have and why, their tactics of offense and defense; I can see them impose, provoke, distort, project, manipulate, and feed off others. I can feel poison. Predators target the innocent and the injured. I have spent 20 years healing myself and others based on so much experience and collective knowledge. I am highly analytical and intuitive (trauma heightens senses for survival), and channel certain wisdom from Source itself. The healing path, spiritual path, and path of evolution can never be finished, it is a never ending progression.