As I said above, my Mom has Alzheimer's and is not the same mom who raised me, and it hurts, but I made her a promise years ago and I am keeping that promise. I promised that I would never put her in a Nursing Home, not after what i noticed while she was working at one as the head nurse. Most of the Elderly people were lucky to see their family once a month. Yesterday was really hard on me because she didn't remember my name most of the day, she knew I was her son, and that I was the only one taking care of her, it was only when she was ready for bed that she knew who I was. One thing I remember that happened when I was young, Dad was fixing some fence, and mom and I walked down to see if he needed help, we were standing there watching when she kicked at somthing and then grabbed my hand and ran as fast as she could, and it wasn't until we were at the house that i found out why she had run. A copperhead had crawled across her foot, she is scarred of snakes and always ahs been for as long as i can remameber. I know it sholdn't be funny but when i tell it and think about it with her, mom always laughs.
What helps me is the faith I have in the Goddess and the God, and knowing that she will be the mother who raised me when I see her again in Summerland. I am a Gay Solitary Witch who happens to follow the Greek Goddesses and Gods as close to the Old ways as I can. No one in my family knows I am Gay or that I am a Witch, it used to bother me but not anymore, since I am now in my 50's and I hope a lot wiser then when I was in my 20's. Some would say I am Eclectic Witch since I follow the Greek Gods but do Ritual like the Wiccans, but I do not care what anyone thinks anymore, i am happy with the way I am and everyone else can shuve it where Helios doesn't shine, (Unless you are a Gay Man that is.)