I look around and try to enjoy my surroundings, however my enjoyment is in what I lack. What I lack seems to be irrelevent. Is this where I really want to be? My one shot at happiness has left, and left for petty reasons. Reasons that could or could not have been rectified. In the finality of it all i'm left with myself in a worse state than possibly even once before. everything and everyone seemingly has a purpose, but what is my purpose. After all we indefinitely need a purpose, as all sentient beings do. Or do we? This enviroment is tainted with false notions and corruption. Several layers of corruption, are to my dismay, what plagues our social self concious. Idealisms born out of anothers view. We are losing originality. I am losing originality. Most can't see that we are war with ourselves, with countless inner personal battles with no real outcome because nothing seems to get better...just worse.
What do we really seek when we seek a partner. Is it companionship? Or is it something else? Whatever it is I know not what I seek anymore. Why must our human race be so easily swayed by negativity and not live up to our great potential. Why is it we all seem to be so lost from one thing or another. Have you ever watched an animal and said to yourself, "I wish my life was so simple." I have and I cant seem to come to understand what exactly makes life so simple.For certain I think we all can agree one one thing. Changes do come. But are they always welcome and necessary. Does it even matter? because they do come and change is inevitable.
would life truly be easier if some unknown source made all our decisions for us? Or must we come to terms with our own decisions knowing we could never truly take them back once the mind has made them.