Welcome! MERRY MEET AND BLESSED BE

i had a feeling that there was change in the air. just wasnt sure what kind of change. It didnt feel like a bad change but it did feel scarry. today things have changed. i know deep down that it is for the best. but it doesnt stop my heart from hurting any less. Today i start a new life, not having a safety net to fall back on. i am not alone but part of me feels lonely. i knew when i woke up this morning that this chage was going to happen but i cried any way. i know change is good but not really knowing what the future has in store from the change is terrifying. i stand on my own now with friends buy my side. does that make any sense. no prob not i have great friends and i wonderful coven. but i must get through this change on my own. i must stand alone to deal with this. i guess i never thought that the time would come when i had to say goodbye to my past and start a new life. i am stepping away from the only thing i have really ever known into a future that i know nothing about. It is a warm sunny day but i couple hours ago when i said goodbye to my past and watch it drive away i felt a small chill like there is this tiny hole that is now going to let the winds of change come in. i am extremely happy with the new life that i have chosen. and i cant be upset by the change because i caused it has this person drove out of my life today i tiny part of my heart went with them. i wish them great joy as they also deal with change and a new adventure.i hope he finds what it is that i couldnt give him. i wasnt able to give him. he is having to change because of the choice i made. i realise now that every ones future relies on what they make of it just remember that what ever changes you make will affect someone else. i guessz i thought that they would put their life on hold just incase i failed at my new life. they were my safety net. i knew all along that it was wrong of me to ask them to standby and let me do my thing. so when they came to me and said that they were changing things also i got scared. i did what i did for reasons only i will ever know about and it is a secret that i will take to my grave. but i would do it again if i had to do it over. i doubt if they will ever read this and that is fine. hopefully they will always remember that i will love them and think of them often.
everything must change and we either change with it gracefully or go kicking and screaming. but change will happen and i hope that people will say that i changed with grace
so.......... to my past i will love you always and think of you often you are what made me what i am it has been a wild ride and i have loved every minute of it and you that will never change.........
to my future. i love you just as much and may we grow together and make memories that one day when there is another change we can look back on and say THAT WAS ONE HELL OF A RIDE.