Rhiannon's Blog (10)

Long time since I have been here.

I had lost my login to this site. And to be honest, don't know if I'll be able to get back on. I got here, via my email today. After changing my password. (i'd forgotten the old one.) Any changes? In the last year? Not many. Got a promotion, that I hate. I applied for the open supervisor job, got it, and now regret it. Being the boss is not my forte at all. Waiting for a staff position to come open, and plan to step down. I have another grandchild since my last post. A little, beautiful girl. An… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on April 25, 2009 at 6:10am — No Comments

Stopping whining, at least on this blog!

I was searching through another journaling space I belong to, and found a group that deals with addiction issues. Pretty much a place to vent. I have been doing alot of online bloggong about my issues with booze. And I figured out that perhaps this site isn't the best place for it. Not that I haven't been given great feedback in the past. It is just that my original intent for this place was to learn to expand my spirituality. I haven't been availing myself of the vast amount of knowledge I can… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on May 3, 2008 at 8:59am — No Comments

Time for a change!

My last post was way depressing. But it was therepuetic( did I spell that right?). I guess people wonder why I put out my dirty laundry on my blog. It helps to get it out of my head. Also I hope that maybe some else reading it, who might have a similiar problem, would see they aren't alone. And, yes, I do hope that someone will comment with some advice that I can use. To recieve, one must give away. I need to remember that. To recieve love, I have to give love. I read that yesterday in a book by… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on May 1, 2008 at 6:56am — No Comments

Damn near bald.

There is nothing more fun than sitting at your desk at 12:15 am, brushing out all the loose hair your significant other just yanked out of your head. Just another Sunday evening at my house. Of course, I started it. My stupid, drunk (Yes, I fell off the wagon,again!) self got a paranoid thought in my head, that I just couldn't shake. I was convinced that my husband wanted to go to his ex-wife's house for his daughter's baby shower, just to eat his ex's cooking. He didn'y go, because I refused to… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on April 28, 2008 at 12:56am — 1 Comment

Each day is a new beginning

On April 10, I had 60 days of continuous alcohol sobriety. So, of course, on April 11 I had a few beers. I know why. I wasn't going to meetings, I wasn't calling my sponser, I mostly wasn't trying to connect with a higher power. I gave up. Fortunately, I have gone to enough AA meetings for the teachings to have soaked into my psyche. I didn't enjoy the beers like I would have prior to AA. I was unhappy with myself and everything around me the whole evening. I knew inside, that I was wrong, that… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on April 14, 2008 at 7:33am — 1 Comment

Living in sobriety

I am having a REALLY hard time dealing with life while not under the influence of alcohol. I was very upbeat and enthusiastic, at first. I haven't gone to an AA meeting in 6 days now. And I feel just bummed, no desire to better myself. Just wanna give up on life altogether. Strangely, I have very little desire to drink. And I haven't drank anything. So I haven't lost my physical sobiety. But I have NO emotional, or mental sobriety. I know it is early in the game.(only 25 days). But I feel as if… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on March 5, 2008 at 8:15am — 2 Comments

Still in this world

I was writing this really great blog, talking about some subjects crucial to the heart of my life, when i accidently hit some wrong key, and POOf it was gone. Is this not perhaps proof that there is a higher power out there. I was ranting about organized religions and how i have such issues with them. Maybe some thing deep inside of me made me hit that key, made me erase those thoughts,because they were unbecoming to someone who is struggling to find a higher power within themselves, I am an alc… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on February 21, 2008 at 1:38pm — No Comments

Unplugged!

Had a financial brain fart, and forgot to pay the phone bill.(ok I lied, i was broke). So had no internet access for about a week. Did not realize how hooked I have become on this computer. I was TOTALLY jonesing. (do folks still use that term?) It scares me to think that my only connection,lately, to the world,is through this little screen and keyboard. Why don't I go out anymore? What am I scared of? I am far from stupid. I know what my problem is. It is textbook. People with addictions tend t… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on February 3, 2008 at 6:43pm — No Comments

What if God/Goddess was one of us?

In my career as an RN in a prison, I have often run into patients(inmates) who are not quite "right"psychologically. At present, I have on psych watch an inmate who truly believes that God is talking to him. He believes that he has the ability to "heal" others with a touch from him. Of course, in a prison, alot of guys don't really appreciate having"hands laid" on them. So this inmate was quickly brought to the attention of the mental health department. How come society now believes that If we s… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on January 20, 2008 at 10:05pm — 2 Comments

New to this space, and happy to be here

I am what is generally known as a Solitary witch. i don't belong to any coven. i have been trying to gain knowledge through reading. I have been involved, in the past, with a group called WRCF in Orlando. (Wiccan Religious Cooperative Of Florida). But due to alot of extremely convoluted and sometimes lazy, selfish , reasons, i have been not as involved as I should be. Joining this site and similiar ones are helping me to realize what I have been missing, and avoiding, in my life. i wear a pentac… Continue

Added by Rhiannon on January 16, 2008 at 7:58pm — 1 Comment