I enjoy having friends. I enjoy having friends that have the same beliefs and values as me. Yet, why is it, four years after graduating high school, that it is so hard now? I had friends.....4 years ago. We all drifted apart. Some went into the military, some went to college, and some took care of their families. I have a family of my own: one smart son and two beautiful daughters. And I have a very loving wife. It couldn't get any better than this!
Or could it?
I have been looking for friends that I could hang out with, that I could have a good time with. The other night I went to the bar with some buddies, thinking that it would all be cool. I had a few beers, yet I still felt like I didn't belong. My wife didn't go with me, because we don't have a babysitter. I know that I have a family now, yet there are times where I would like my wife and I to just get away from it all for a night, drop the kids off at a babysitter, and go paint the town red.
An American dream is all that is.
Friends are hard to come by these days. Friends you can trust are like finding a diamond in the ocean. It takes a lot to make friends. And now, I just don't have the time and the energy to dedicate to that. My family stands on the edge of a knife, with my two daughters in foster care under my mother, and my son saying that he doesn't have anyone to play with. On top of that, I start a job next week. It's hard to make friends when you have to support your family. So, I'll stick with my family.