Sharing a little of my poetry

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:10pm

~ Laugh Baby ~

She opened her eyes and blinded me with light,
I held her close and listened to her breathe,
She would smile when I entered the room,
She would cry when I turned to leave.

Tangled her fingers within my hair,
Kicking her feet and laughing at me,
Never she cried when I was there,
Kicking her feet still laughing at me.

Against me sleep this angel so bright,
Warming my skin with her breath,
Fear of nothing except the dark night,
Feeling the empty when she left.

Chewing her shirt with towels on the bed,
Wide her eyes they swallowed me,
She would smile when I entered the room,
Kicking her feet and laughing at me.

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:11pm

~ What Was Not ~

I’ll never forgive him I swear, I swear,
This water is ice cold and cherry colored.

I’m biting my lip and knotting my hair,
The blood is running down onto my ankles.

The bathroom tile is marked and torn,
The wasps are circling around my head.

My hands they cradle what was not born,
Shoebox so hot from the metal made roof.

Alone, what’s new? This god planned plague,
My tourniquet made from the toilet tissue.

Still trying to heal the cuts on my leg,
That led me to sleep in this blood filled tub.

Barefooted I walk to the trees outside,
Digging my nails in to the hard dirt.

Placing what’s left to the earth inside,
So mother can cradle what was not born.

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:12pm

~ Trashcan Baby ~

The gate slams closed I'm now prisoner,
Becoming the object that someone owns,
They are beating my head against the floor,
They are locking me in the darkroom closet.

I really wish that I were making this up,
So maybe you could sleep better at night,
Mother stop them from tearing my clothes,
They’ve broken the angel that you gave me.

They push me into the bathroom wall,
“I swear to god” they scream at me,
Shaking fists in front of my face,
If I mess up and tell the truth.

You ask me now why I am bitter,
You’ve stapled hateful to my name,
But if the hateful bruised you too,
Would you not now be the same?

They tell me now I am useless,
They tell me now that I can leave,
They've used me up and took me out,
To the trash I hide and live.

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:13pm

~ Silence ~

He stays in silence and listens to me cry,
Never knowing just what to say.

Never does he speak, he only sighs,
And offers his shoulder any way.

He says he wishes he could be here,
He listens to my angry confession.

To hold my hand and quiet the fear,
He tries to soothe my painful depression.

He promises me a brighter day,
His verbal arm he wraps me tight.

When all this pain will go away,
Then says this all will come out right.

He stays in silence and listens to me cry,
Never knowing just what to say.

Never does he speak, he only sighs,
And offers his shoulder any way.


This poem was written for Michael and the support he has given when I needed it the most.

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:14pm

~ Be Satisfied ~

Be satisfied now we are even,
The score is now made a twin,
You got the reaction that you wanted,
Sitting idle when I fell in.

Inflicted deep you shared the pain,
One not intended to ever be felt,
It burned throughout my wounded heart,
Revealing the cards you were dealt.

Outreached my hands are offered to you,
You never even moved my way,
I am now left standing alone,
As you turn to walk away.

Be satisfied now we are even,
You sat so idle when I fell in,
Destroying what may had been right,
Before it had the chance to begin.

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:14pm

~ Undone ~

I cannot possess what I long to hold,
Impatiently I wait as the days pass on,
I mention it often appearing too bold,
Furthering the gap between our bond.

I want what has never been gave to any,
This simple union that won’t be undone,
Taken for granted so much by so many,
Recognize us god for we are one.

Share my life I give it freely,
You’ve been my life from the start,
I offer myself to you completely,
And you have always owned my heart.

I promise to love you forever tomorrow,
Through bad and good I’m here to stay,
Through happiness, love, and over sorrow,
I want what has never been given away.

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:14pm

~ No Happy Forever ~

I walk the path in the woods of my mind,
Leave the road they beg me with tears,
The eyes of darkness from trees lie behind,
Touch the grass and face your fears,

Echoing laughter follows my advance,
Remind me oh princess covered in white,
Branches circle in a broken dance,
Fearing the forest tearing in fright,

Did you feel much like I do now?
Screaming banshees instead of the brook,
Demons leap out in place of the owl,
Rocks bare fangs; the ground then shook,

The sky exploding in a hail of dead,
The path grows smaller, the trees get near,
And the queen of red wants my head,
There are no fairy godmothers here,

Thorns at my face making me wince,
The road has ended to stepping stones,
No happy forever or handsome prince,
The woods edge littered all with bones,

A gate lies before me covered with time,
A sign hangs loud by just one end,
Bound in chains and ivy vines,
Forbidding me from entering in,
Pass the gate I see the light,

So many lost and afraid to try,
Trees of green, and the sky so bright,
To scale this mountain left to die,

I find my strength and gather breath,
I touch the gate and take my time,
Refusing to be another one left,
Pray for my grace and start to climb.

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:15pm

~ Condemned ~
(Damned)
Under feet the street lies wet,
The rope cuts deep into my wrist,
Where I am I won’t forget,
And drags me forward though I resist

The cart it creaks in front of me,
The man from behind lashes my back,
I walk unclothed for all to see,
Causing the blood with each crack

Fall to my knees he hits me again,
Pulled by my hair I’m made to stand,
Feeling the tongue of the whip dig in,
Between my thighs he pushes his hand

Gnashing my teeth I let out a scream,
My nails at his throat I tear through skin,
People stand still like ghosts in a dream,
Lashing his eyes pushing them in

Jerking my wrist free of its bind,
The dogs echo the trees reply,
Run to the woods they follow behind,
The clouds grow black filling the sky

I fall to the ground cutting my hand,
I crawl down the hole to its end,
Finding shelter in a natures dam,
Water covers the heat of my skin



I fear to move for they might see,
I lay in darkness silence I keep,
Praying once more that none find me,
The earth my bed I fall asleep.

~ Condemned ~
(Escape)
The sounds I hear from my hidden place,
They arouse me from my slumber retreat,
I cover in mud the swells of my face,
Departing the dam and finding my feet

The barking of dogs and voices of men,
Approach me fast as I continue to flee,
The search proceeds for this vixen of sin,
To fulfill the penance that’s intended for me

The stones are razors beneath my feet,
Shouts grow close not far from behind,
Cold is the breeze that replaces the heat,
Looking for shelter that I cannot find

I see the beasts from the corner of my eye,
Advancing towards me with frightening speed,
Convinced I am that I will now die,
Screaming for help I’m sold there’s no need

I feel on my heels their stagnant breath,
With hungry mouths I’m intended to fill,
Loosing a step will now mean my death,
Prey now, I run avoiding their kill

I don’t even see him but hear him the same,
His arm circles me and quickens his run,
The dogs cry defeat for the steal of their game,
My eyes search the sky, when I become numb.


~ Condemned ~
(Guarded)
The first thing I notice when I focus my sight,
Is the dress of my wounds and the warmth of my skin,
The dark of the room except for one light,
The glow of the fire that’s creeping within

Swaddled in linen I study my bed,
A four walled room the space of a tomb,
The passage outward lies close to my head,
Leading me from my mortar formed womb

I crawl through the hole that leads me down,
Approaching the fire within its great hearth,
I notice then blood adorning the ground,
The chair to my right prodigious in girth

A gleam to my side then catches my eye,
It moves with the stealth from the shadow deep,
I muffle my scream beginning to cry,
Expecting my death if it chooses to leap

Out of the darkness where I can see,
He towers above my crouch in the floor,
Slowly he moves then circling me,
No longer am I afraid anymore.






~ Condemned ~
(Tended)
My eyes are weighted with him in light,
He lies beside me calm and tranquil,
His eyes they mimic the color of night,
They cause me no pain and I remain still

To those who have seen, a monster I’m sure,
This beast like creature that means no harm,
Pulled into his lap I am from the floor,
Wiping the blood as he does from my arm

He stands to his feet and lifts me to him,
Towards the door he then carries me,
Wrapped in his arms and close to his skin,
Studying the pictures in the hall that I see

Through a new door then we do pass,
To a water filled vessel that is candle lit,
Surrounded in stone with a bottom of glass,
Heated by the fire that burns under it

Removing the sheet and exposing my skin,
Running his fingers throughout my hair,
Into the hot water he then sits me in,
Taking his place to my left in a chair.

~ Condemned ~
(Seduction)
He watches me bathe which pleases his eyes,
He moves from his place and closer to me,
My hands from my breasts to the skin of my thighs,
He anxiously waits for all he will see

He moves to the water along by my side,
Waiting to see how I will react,
Letting me know that he will abide,
While pressing his chest the length of my back

He loves me deep while holding me tight,
Bathing my skin in sweat and steam,
Making me whole with him of night,
Continued steady throughout this dream

We move from the water to the floor,
Driving within he moves above me,
Into his ear I’m asking for more,
Whispering back he says he loves me

To the room I awoke, he carries me then,
On a pallet of cushion swaddled I’m deep,
In front of the hearth and fire within,
Beside me he lays in silence we sleep.

~ Condemned ~
(Hunted)
I wake to the sound familiar to me,
Except for the fire the room is dark,
He’s moved from his sleep to where I can’t see,
The darkness is filled with the echoing bark

Appearing to me he’s then at my side,
He hands me a cloak and motions me still,
Telling me now that we must hide,
For they have come with intention to kill

He leads me down to the basement floor,
Within the hallways we move silent,
We hear the breaking through the door,
With shouted threats profane and violent

The hallway ends to a path outside,
We follow it to a vine-covered shack,
He pushes me in and tells me to hide,
To not be afraid that he will come back

I move to the corner and muffle my cries,
He kisses me deep releasing his hold,
Then he is gone again from my eyes,
Leaving me here in fear and cold.

~ Condemned ~
(Loved)
I hear the shouts of the passing men,
They stand inches from where I lay,
Once more they say they will search again,
Then will return when it is day

I feel the breeze across my back,
I turn to find from where it came,
I see a hole at the base of the shack,
Then hear him whisper out my name

He pulls me through into the night,
And by my hand he then leads me,
I see the horses within my sight,
Realizing that he means to flee

We ride for days by the running stream,
The sky rains snow from up above,
Continuing steady throughout this dream,
To follow beside my condemned love.

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:15pm

~ Speak the Dead ~

He charges forward crash into me,
I watch this madness and stand so hollow,
He covers his mouth so others don't see,
Afraid that more will shortly follow,

Mocking riddles of identical twins,
Pastel picture this blurry vision,
Biting my lip it finally begins,
Tearing me open deep this incision,

I crouch at the wall backward he walks,
I lean further in his darkened expression,
He stumbles to fall backwards he talks,
A true definition of a true possession,

He speaks in jest he speaks the dead,
Fire I become while burning my skin,
Cover my sight and causing the red,
Offer of pardons if I allow him in,

Locking this door bury this key,
Meeting death a foretold lover,
Inside these walls he’s lost in me,
I feel his end a tortured smother,

Mocking riddles of identical twins,
Pastel picture this blurry vision,
Biting my lip it finally ends,
Tearing me open deep this incision.

Comment by Celestos on April 6, 2008 at 9:16pm

~ Armless Cross ~

Beneath me the ground is wet and cold,
Smothered my feet so heavy with mud,
Reciting my crimes again I am told,
Noting my wrists covered in blood

Pulling me forward this hateful rope,
Feeling my back twist and turn,
Leaving behind all my hope,
Wondering if they ever will learn

I hear the horses to my side,
They whisper softly in my ear,
That none like me has ever died,
And I have nothing more to fear

To my legs the branches come,
From the crowd that's circled me,
Again my blood begins to run,
A sight for those who came to see

The children pulling at my dress,
Still this hill I do ascend,
The armless cross in front of me,
That promises to be my end

Bound I am to this stake,
These faggots piled in front of me,
They hide me from the watching eyes,
Cover me so none can see


My feet are numb I cannot feel,
When the fire starts to burn,
Leaving behind all their hate,
Wondering if they ever will learn

I feel the fire swallow my dress,
Breathing my breath the last I take,
Tasting the flames against my lips,
Saying the prayers the last I make,

I look once more into the sky,
The smoke is filling all I see,
My last sight as birds fly by,
Knowing soon that will be me.

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