Addiction fact or fiction?

Controversial stuff here but allow me to enlighten you on my background. I was a sexually abused by a much older cousin as a child. I was also team raped as a late teen. I came from a family of so called mental illness. I came from a family drenched in substance abuse. By age twelve I was drinking every day. By age fifteen I was downing a fifth of Jim Beam and mixing it with street drugs every day. This went on until age 27 when I got custody of my then husbands kids and fell for the relapse is part of recovery nonsense and struggled only to begin a ten year stretch of abusing drugs like zanax colonopin and yes I liked those oxycontin. When I left the abusive marriage I resumed regular bar activity. Between ages 12 and 37 I lived the illusion of addiction. It's been given a name and disease status solely to keep people under the illusion that they can not help themselves. It's done to nurture dependence. I am 41 years old and for the last four years I have occasionally indulged in 3 to 5 drinks some marijuana, opium and the acclaimed magic mushrooms. I one day decided I coul control myself and still a time or two a year let loose and have fun. For anyone striving toward sobriety or self control I would even give you a phone number to reach me. My best and only advice is; don't believe me. Also don't believe anyone else. Believe only in you. I know it's difficult. I also experienced just about every self destructive tendency known. There is one key to monumental transformation. Everything is easier than you think. Stop thinking, just be. Infinite love and awareness, MorningStarr

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