I wish Things in life would just settle down for awhile

Well today is Friday September 25th, and again another day starts out like shit. I have a trillion things to do today and the hubby's car wont start and he had to take my van. Leaves me stranded again. Now I have to beg my mom for her car and add a stop to the auto parts store and fit fixing the piece of crap into an already hectic day.

I wish my life would just straighten up an fly right for once in 44 years. I am truely exhausted from this constant battle of playing catch up to the billion things that continually go wrong and I am the only one that can or will fix it. I mean really, 2 grown ass men that can't fix a car live in my home. 2 grown ass women that don't cook or clean, and 2 business partners that love saying they own a business but don't work. WHAT THE HELL!!!! I am stretched about as far as I cab go, and I have finally relate to those people who just snap. I have a real apprieciation for those who pack up and go live solitary in the forest, and have no desire to come into contact with another human being ever again. I GET IT!!!

I love it when my mom starts talking about all the stuff WE need to get done in the business, or what WE should do. WE means ME, and hey I am a pack mule in this life so lets just pile her up with crap and when she can't handle anymore we'll just shoot her. I gotta say if I were a lesser person I really think I would hurt someone.

Last night was parent teacher conferrence night.....Get this they make us line up like students, go to classes, and with the idea we will get a better understanding of our kids day....Cause yeah I never attended school so I can't possibly understand. ASSHOLES. But the catch for me I have 2 kids in eighth grade so I have to split up and divide the classes. MORE CRAP TO ADD TO THE MULE...WHY NOT.
So first I go to my Son's PE class where they decide that we should participate in a kind of dodge ball activity. I tell my kid NO WAY. But he begs and I give in....NEVER AGAIN!!!!

So here we go balls are flying and I stand back trying to appear to participate but not really. And some jackass kid throws a ball and hits me right in the middle of my face. Problem I have what I call a birth defect....here let me elaborate: Pain = rage which means if I get hurt, stub a toe, break a bone, cut myself, whatever including emotional pain I have an instant adrenaline rush that causes instant RAGE. It has taken a better part of 30 years to control it but sometimes I get taken off guard. So here I am in my kids school just got hit in he face doing somehing I did not want to do by some jackass kid with no commonsense.....DID I DO IT? NO

The kid comes up to me and starts to say something and I put my hand up and growl get away from me, leave me alone....by the look on his face I think I had grown horns and my eyes had changed to a sort of red demonic look. I don't care he quickly went away. I picked up my purse walk out the gym door and slammed it. I heard the entire gym vibrate. Now outside angry beyond belief I don't think and light a cigarette. A teacher approaches me and says loudly....YOU CAN"T SMOKE ON CAMPUS!!!!! I never said a word, But when I looked at her appearantly I still had that demonic look cause she couldn't get away from me quick enough and didn't say another word.

Today my face still hurts, my schedule for the day is to big to every complete and 5 min ago my mother yells up the stairs and wants me to do 2 spray tans on 2 homecoming idiots today as well. I think I might do those...just cause I am still raging and I can get out some frustrations on a couple of Delta homecoming sluts that didn't have the forethought to get it done before the day of homecoming and that will probably be pregnant before school is out this year.

WOULD I DO THAT? (LOL) NO I wouldn't, but just thinking of it makes me feel a little better.


Well ranting about my crappy life isn't getting that list done. SO WE (ME) GO!!!!