More info than you’d ever care to know about me….

For those who are curious.....

Some info on my background. I have a 2 year associates degree in electronics and another 2 year degree in computer science. I went to Central Washington University working on a B.S. in computer science (information systems) with a minor in mathematics. But ran out of financial aid 2 ½ years into the program and had to withdrawal from school. My last job was with a manufacturing company as an electronics stockroom assistant. I really loved that job and only wished the economy hadn't forced my lay-off. I'd really love to find another job in that same field. {update 3/09: I've been re-hired as a elelctronics stockroom clerk - Yea!! it's a temp position, but hey it's work!!!!! }

I’ve been an agnostic since the age of 13 when I got fed up with the Catholic religion my mom kept forcing me to adhere to. There was just something lacking and repeating the same old dogma just got to be frustrating. I’ve always been fascinated by the Pagan/Wiccan religion since my early 20’s and in the last couple of months I’ve decided to gather up all the books I’ve bought over the years on the subject and start formally studying.

I try to be a selfless, spiritual and focused person. But I have a tendency to get caught up in my dreams and illusions of how things should be. I always seem to be waiting for my knight in shining armor to rescue me. I’ve always had a very vivid imagination and love to daydream. I’ve always been told – Jan, you’re going to dream your life away. Well sorry it can’t be helped that’s just the way I am.

Sometimes I feel torn between whether to seek the light of companionship or sink into the darkness of solitude. I am compassionate unless aggressively pushed into a situation. If that happens watch out for I can be very caustic and push back in defense.

I consider myself a very romantic person and instead of trying to verbalize my passion I prefer showing it in a relationship. Sometimes however, I have a tendency to go too far and smother the person with to much affection, and end up chasing them away. Other times I’m modest to the point of impracticality. I crave a fairytale ending and am strongly attracted to good looking, long haired, intelligent men.

Above all I value fidelity and will be kind and affectionate to my mate letting him take on a dominant role in public, but at home, it’s my Alpha side who’ll rule the roost.

As with my sign, Pisces the fish, I like to travel. I love small towns and big towns too, the older the better. I love the architecture of old buildings. I’d love to see an old west ghost town. I have seen a couple of farm homesteads and a prairie school house. I’ve also been to a few homestead cemeteries. It’s fascinating looking at the headstones and seeing families from the late 18th and early 19th century. I wish I could win the lotto then I could travel all over europe and see all the architecture I love of the 17,18, & 19th centuries. Not to mention ancient egypt, I’d love to see the tombs and temples.

Socially I'm comfortable being just one of the guys. I’d enjoy a drink and a game of pool, with your friends just as much as I’d enjoy a night in with just you, me, and a DVD. Most importantly though, take the time to get to know me for the person I am on the inside and not get caught up in the fact that I'm not a size 8, more like a 14, and that I'm a work in progress and striving to better myself.