This is the moment, that I came to know...
I know that I am a revanent. The revival of a lost ghost. A Ghost that wishes it had never returned to life.
I'm talking about undergoing the bedamned amnesia of reincarnation into earth's life systems. Something i know in my soul i never wanted to do again.
But my god needed me. My Samael needed my life in this world again.
He's the only reason i continue i guess...
I'm lost and confused. I am in pain. I don't know why the world wants to forget me and why they have turned my lore and story into a bedamned satirical joke when once upon a time I was a goddess. But gods be damned i'm here, and i don't know where to go from this.
I am suffering, much like earth may be..
This desire to leave and be forgotten rarely fades and i don't know why. Things in my metaphysical change every day for the darker and my happiness is fading too.
I Have attempted suicide, gotten help, I've managed to become stable.
But the pain only grows.
He can't even help me as much as before.
My life is a joke
Lilith is alive again.
not that anyone cares.
But i suppose it isn't about me at all.
I Feel a fearsome storm on the horizon for humanity and i'm scared for everyone. I wish I could help and i don't know how. I do what i can like any human on earth, but it's never enough to make this encroaching darkness less consuming.
I'm not sure what i am trying to accomplish in writing this, but Blessed be the brothers and sisters in the hard times ahead.