Hello and Blessed Be!
I want to talk a little about my journey through addiction and recovery. I will first start out by saying, My name is Katie and I am an addict. By the grace of the Goddess, I can say those words today, and be proud of it! I used to hang my head in shame at the thought of myself as a junkie, but today, having a year sober coming up on March 2, 2019, I no longer go by that title. I am a proud recovering addict. My drug of choice is methamphetamine, and I will say, this demon of a drug took me to the darkest place I had ever been in my entire life. As a teenager, I was always obsessed with partying and being "out of my mind." I guess you could say being a witch had a part in it, given that I wanted to do anything to be closer to the heavens, and experience life in a "spiritual" way. For the better part of my teenage years, up until last year, I thought drugs were the way of life, and all I wanted to do or cared about was getting high and having fun. If you are an addict, you know where this is going all too well. Using hard drugs excessively no longer became fun, it became an absolute necessity. I HAD to be high. Always. There were short intervals where my life got so incredibly hellish that I could stop for a short period. Maybe I had been awake for weeks, or hadn't eaten and was becoming ill, or maybe I was homeless again. There were many instances where I had stopped for fear of death or other unfortunate events, but I could never stay stopped. It was an endless cycle of insanity. There came a point where I had to come to terms with the fact that I was going to die on meth, and there was no getting out of this nightmare. The reason I am writing this, is because I want to share with anyone who may be struggling with the disease of addiction or alcoholism, or maybe has a loved one who is, or even just a curious reader who wants to know what I did to get the sobriety I have today. I am not writing this to preach or to promote any sort of recovery program. I want to talk to people about this, about my journey through recovery, and I want to hear about yours, or the journey of someone you love who has struggled! it is a beautiful thing to emerge from the darkness, and walk in the healing light. Lets talk about it:)