My thoughts for this blessed day!
A big hi to all my friends; I do hope that life is giving the things that you want. For me, the lost of Sophie my dog has been so hard to get over. Yes I have looked into getting another dog but the animal charity's are so judgmental in who they deem suitable, and I'm not deemed suitable.
The Castlerigg trip is off! I'm tired of being told how childish or silly I am, as if your disabled you should stay out of sight of normal folk. I did a test run yesterday and managed to get up the five hills to get out of the valley. It was hard work with a full load of all the camping equipment, water and food. I had workout that I could travel about seven miles before I was at point of having a power problem in getting back home.
My test run was to find a farm or household that would for a payment charged the trike for 4 hours that would give me the power to get to the camp site. I explaned who I was and what I was doing and that this was to source out places to get a recharge
What I got was shouted at, ask why should I want to do such a thing, that I should know the range of my trike and stay within that range. How childish to attempt without having someone backing you up. The most frequent statement was "I don't know who you are, go away".
I went back to my trike very dismayed at finding their attitude hard to understand. So I unloaded my table and chair from the traller and set up in the lay by. My legs hurt bad and I wanted the solar panels to put some charge in the batteries so I could get home with no problems. I was sat there reading my paper, having my coffee fix and I then had a visit from the POLICE.
I pray for my dear Sophie to come back and take me home with her as I have just had enough of over aggressive humans that are so scared of being attack themselves, that anything outside their so small reality is such a threat. The worst thing is that it's always my fault. I don't feel the need to attack anyone either physical or verbally but I've been told that I'm passive/aggressive which then make all those that are aggressive/aggressive attack; so it's all my fault. Does no one ever listen to what is being said or think before opening mouth. I accept people for who they are and more than willing to help anyone who asked for help even those that are aggressive and that have hurt me. Life would be so much more pleasant if people would work for the harmony of all not just for themselves.
So I'm back within the prison of my home till the day that my Sophie comes back to take me home with her. I'm so tired of pain and the crap of others.
Blessed Be
Mitch
Comment by Ritalin-Bunny on May 27, 2012 at 7:52am Got an electric tri-wheeler, eh? They're pretty cool. I was interested in them for a while as a alternative energy mode of bringing supplies in to my little homestead but the range inhibited the potential usefulness.
They adapt well to a small gasoline engine. also worth looking at are the units that have a little Honda generator which feeds the battery while the vehicle is in motion. Astounding mileage! I'll see if I can find a link to YouTube.
Comment by Kris Hughes on May 27, 2012 at 10:48am Hi Mitch!
Just lending some words of friendly support. Losing an animal friend is never easy. Keep breathing deep!
So was this Castlerigg near Keswick? Not making excuses for folks' bad manners, but I suppose they are inundated with tourists, etc. at times, and get fed up, which probably accounts for some of it. I used to be involved in activities with Fell ponies in the general area, and often found the tourist offices really helpful with weird requests. The trick might be to get them to call ahead to some farms and ask for you. People seem to like to do things through a middle-man.
All the best!
Kris
Hi Ritalin Bunny
I thought of that Idea before I went with the solar panels but could not get a transformer to take the 240 volts AC and give me 40 volts dc at 200 watts. Then I was told by the police that the gen would make it a motorized vehicle which would need license, mot, insurance just the same as if I put a 20cc petrol engine on the trike.
Kris Hughes, nice to hear form you.
I live in Weardale, Durham, at the bottom of a valley. There is no tourist offices that are open now, they closed at the begining of the year. They were less than usless when open as they could not give me the address's or phone numbers of any campsite on the route I was taking. Not interested in phoning anyone for me and I was just told to use the internet. I felt that they were only interested in selling me books.
I do not have a phone line and do everthing by email or internet and have sent out more emails that I care to remember to campsites, pubs and garages along the route. Those that have replied have said "We don't have tents here" or want me to join their club with a large joining fee before charging £20 a night for me to camp there. I got one reply from a garage that "we only do petrol here". People are so helpful.
With the way the roads are around here all up hill I have to know the road and where the farm/ house is before I can contact them which is limited by the range of the trike. That is what I tried yesterday.
I have spent months lining up the campsites that I can use but after yesterday I don't see how I can make any of the campsites without a mid journey recharge of 3/4 hours or a ruff camp.
Blessed Be
Mitch
Comment by Ritalin-Bunny on May 27, 2012 at 3:11pm That's a drag Mitch. Where I live it's nearly anarchy - people do what ever, when ever, where ever! Not many pay for insurance and loads drive with even drivers licenses. Our ditches are full of broken beer, vodka, and whisky bottles.
On the up side to all that people do mind their business and we've never had a thief about or any real trouble. Mind you the locals know I'm armed to the teeth and they also know I'm a decent shooter.
There's coppers but you only ever see them drive by once in a blue moon and they don't stop for anything.Well, they'll stop in town at the coffee shop.
You couldn't possibly need more than a couple dollars worth of electricity, if that. There must be a way to get a bit of cooperation from the good folk of Britain. Have you tried reaching the local nobility, a Duke or Lord perhaps? Even the municipal governments must have some form of advocacy.
Ritalin Bunny your discription reminds me of London and it may be unlawful but guns were plentyful there too. That is why I got out and moved up north. You have a funny idea of the people of Britain as in some places you could end up in A&E for making eye contact with the wrong person. Or there are those with their noses stuck so far up in the air that they could drowned if a passing cloud went over head. There are very few good folk who care about anyone but themselves in Britain which as time goes on is getting more like George Orwell's 1984. I'm not a happy person at the moment as I put so much into doing this trip. For the lack of 50 pence worth of electric which I was willing to pay, for the dream is dead. I'm tired of fighting so much negativity which ends up to be all my fault. As I was told "why would you being disabled want to go camping". No I should curl up and die so not to bother anyone. What a miserable world this is; I do hope the doomsayers are right and the world is ending in December this year. Looking forward to it.
Comment by Ritalin-Bunny on May 27, 2012 at 7:02pm I do hope things improve for you Mitch, it must be difficult. Perhaps a song, eh?
Thanks Bunny
It was a good try but as the ending goes "Tomorrow is only a day away". I keep on telling myself that "Tomorrow" the miserable excuses for humans around would allow me some life and happiness; but it's always a day away, never today. So tired of being put down, made to feel small and inadequate, reported to the authorities by those that live such small lives. If it was not for the pain and weakness in my legs I would be able to reach the camp sites with no problems. I'm mobility challenge and different; so as they see it I should not be seen or be a part of the society of normal folk. Unless they want something from me. You conform to the way they think you should live or they make life a living hell. I just can't be squeezed back into their small way of thinking as it becomes death.
Comment by Lady Skydancer on May 31, 2012 at 10:41pm Hi Mitch,
Thanks for the weekly update. You have a great writing style - do you write for any magazines or keep other blogs? I am still writing for Witch School as I love teaching (as you know), and I am getting a piece together on Dakini Reiki which I founded back in 2005.
I am sorry you are still feeling so much pain over losing Sophie. It's hard especially if you have no family nearby with whom you can share your good memories. I don't think you will ever be over her death but please do not pray for your own demise. Also don't pray for the end of the world in Dec. as I have appointments due next year!!
Like you, I know what it is like to live with daily pain. I could have screamed today because my body was having a flare up and I was walking like a 90yr old. Until my meds had kicked in it was painful even holding my morning cup of herbal tea. I find that if I focus on doing something for someone else it eases my pain, so I work on my charity projects. Do you have something similar in your life.
Have you considered contacting organisations or charities which hold events for the disabled? Some arrange trips away and social nights. Although my mum is 92yrs she gets involved in Lunch clubs and charity fund raising events in the village she lives in, in Suffolk. They have loads of similar groups where I live in Scotland. Phone the CAB, or check the local free papers. I know you probably do not feel like it right now but if we have a good summer you could be out & about with others, enjoying yourself.
Witch School are looking for people to teach their own Wiccan/Pagan courses. You are not paid but you could get to contact new Pagan friends and widen you Pagan contacts. You are not small & inadequate and you should show people the talents you do have. Prove everyone wrong!
Blessings to you as always,
Lady s. x
Hi Lady Skydancer
I'm sorry to hear of your flare up of pain but at least you are not getting people around you telling you that "Your so childish/ stupid for trying to do things you can't do - Why should you want to do that - You can't be in that much pain if you want to do that - Scammer - benefit cheat". Then when I say "OK no Problem" and walk away, I get a visit from the Police as It's all my fault as I'm a threat! Commiting the crime of interfering with their small reality; only because I try to do the things that they don't have the ability to think of.
Life is for living and to live you have to get out and to experience that life and to meet new people. That is what I was trying to do with the Castlerigg trip as I'm not allowed to partate in any of the things within the village I live in because as I have been told "We don't want the likes of you HERE". The only crime I have commited is breath! But if you listen to the gossip, I'm such a monster. The nearest town is 16miles away and the bus's stop running at 7pm.
Sophie is gone I do accept that but while here she was the only one that gave me love without taking. Now all I have is the crap of those with their small realities wanting me to comform to their world. Who would want to live in a George Orwell's 1984 type world; I have fought hard for the last 40 years against the lies and manipulation of that type of reality and have become so tired of doing it on my own. When the spirit is not alowed to fly it withers and dies.
One day I will get In return the same respect that I always give to others, whether they deserve it or not; but I don't think it will be within this lifetime.
Bright Blessings
Blessed Be
Mitch
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