My thoughts for this blessed day!
A big hi to all my friends; I do hope that life is giving the things that you want. For me, the lost of Sophie my dog has been so hard to get over. Yes I have looked into getting another dog but the animal charity's are so judgmental in who they deem suitable, and I'm not deemed suitable.
The Castlerigg trip is off! I'm tired of being told how childish or silly I am, as if your disabled you should stay out of sight of normal folk. I did a test run yesterday and managed to get up the five hills to get out of the valley. It was hard work with a full load of all the camping equipment, water and food. I had workout that I could travel about seven miles before I was at point of having a power problem in getting back home.
My test run was to find a farm or household that would for a payment charged the trike for 4 hours that would give me the power to get to the camp site. I explaned who I was and what I was doing and that this was to source out places to get a recharge
What I got was shouted at, ask why should I want to do such a thing, that I should know the range of my trike and stay within that range. How childish to attempt without having someone backing you up. The most frequent statement was "I don't know who you are, go away".
I went back to my trike very dismayed at finding their attitude hard to understand. So I unloaded my table and chair from the traller and set up in the lay by. My legs hurt bad and I wanted the solar panels to put some charge in the batteries so I could get home with no problems. I was sat there reading my paper, having my coffee fix and I then had a visit from the POLICE.
I pray for my dear Sophie to come back and take me home with her as I have just had enough of over aggressive humans that are so scared of being attack themselves, that anything outside their so small reality is such a threat. The worst thing is that it's always my fault. I don't feel the need to attack anyone either physical or verbally but I've been told that I'm passive/aggressive which then make all those that are aggressive/aggressive attack; so it's all my fault. Does no one ever listen to what is being said or think before opening mouth. I accept people for who they are and more than willing to help anyone who asked for help even those that are aggressive and that have hurt me. Life would be so much more pleasant if people would work for the harmony of all not just for themselves.
So I'm back within the prison of my home till the day that my Sophie comes back to take me home with her. I'm so tired of pain and the crap of others.