Bright Blessing to one and all
I do believe that computers have become sentient and out to get me! My new PC died this week; less than two weeks old and I had to go through all my old junked pc's that had been taking up space in my back room for years to get the parts to build another one.
Talk about slow; I can make a cup of coffee and a sandwich and still be waiting for the download to finish. This will have to do until the new PC is either repaired or replaced by the firm I bought it from.
I believe that I have been tested this week. Some 6 weeks ago a member of this village approached me and showed an interest in the paranormal, philosophy and religon. I explaned that I followed a Wiccan/Buddhist path and laid down the ground rules for visits to my home and temple.
It may seem odd the need for rules but I have had experience of the attitude of people when they are invited into my home; they take over and feel that they can do what they want.
1) My home is a temple to peace and enlightenment, Respect at all times to me and the things you see.
2) No touching of things of interest unless permission is given.
3) Respect my wishes to only come to my home by prier arrangement or contact me first.
I thought it would be nice to have a like mind to talk to, but was not to be.
First visit he could not understand how I could marry Wiccan and Buddhism together. Kept on crossing himself but had no belief in the Bible; started to tell me his fears that there was no life after death and did not want to die. Deeply into the world ending at the end of this year. Could not understand why I was not worried about this.
Second visit, put an can of drink on my alter, spilled tea over my net book. I did supprise myself that I felt no anger and kept centered; meditation is better than a barrel full of prosaic. He started to show me more of his underlying problems as he told me that he had corrected all my spelling mistakes in the emails I had sent him.
Kept on telling me the gossip going around about me; when it did not cause a desired reaction within me the negitive gossip got worse. He told me that I have been seen going around the village in a wig and dress and that the whole village was getting a petition up to get me removed.
He was going down the same path as my EX and trying to work me into his fantasies. The compassion in me so wanted to help him. This did not work that well with my ex and lead to twenty years of hell for me; The question was DID I want to follow that path again.
I was doing a ritual meditation on this problem when he turned up yet again unexpectedly and got upset when I did not let him in. On the doorstep he berated me for a email I sent him suggesting that meditation could be a help with his OCD and that he had a problem with controling his thoughts and should not be thinking about the paranormal or conspiracies at this time.
He then demanded a dvd that he had left and then threw a wobbly because of a finger print on the cover. Telling me about having respect of other peoples property this is the same person that spilled tea over my netbook.
His parting remark was that he knows all about Wicca and that he had recited a Wiccan prayer from a Wiccan book and was attacked by demons.
Yes, the final straw had been put on the back of the donkey and that donkey had collapsed. My decision was made and when he turned up again on Saturday I took him to the local pub and he was in tears as I told him the reasons why I could not have him in my home anymore.
He produced a book on Astral Travel writen by the school of Wicca and procceded to show me the prayer that brought forth the demons. Could not understand that the book was not an authority on Wicca and In fact the prayer was a generic long winded Pagan ritual for protection and pap for the people like him to spend good money on.
The demons he saw are like all thoughts and objects were only in the mind. This is why it's not good for him to be involved with the paranormal at this time.
My lesson was to temper compassion with wisdom to know when you are the danger and not the cure to the problem. Now I'm trying to lift a heavy cloak of guilt I feel from turning my back on someone in need of help.
I find that lessons and enlightenment can come from the most unlikely places.
"God sleeps in a rock
Dreams in a plant
stirs in an animal
And can awaken in a man"
When the darkness stops you from seeing your way. Look deep within yourself for the light to show you the way forward.