My life has been crazy for the past few months (I know, who's hasn't). I moved in with my boyfriend, and hour and a half away from my family and friends, and the place I grew up! That's huge for me, because I have friends that are like family, and I am close to my family. The move and change has turned out to be very good, I am learning to be be free! My boyfriend does not have the same belief system as me, but that has never been an issue.
For the first time in my life, I am in a happy, healthy relationship. I still keep in touch with my family and friends, though I do miss them dearly. But what sent me into a bout of depression was losing my fur baby/familiar, his name was Tempest and we grew up together. He was 17 when we had to put him down, he wasn't able to keep clean (though the other cats tried to help) he wasn't eating like he should and he couldn't move without limping and wincing in pain. When I moved, I had to leave him behind, but when my parents' and I decided to put him down, I stayed with him for a week, we cuddled, and I gave him scraps of what I was eating, just like I always did. I told him what was going on, and he looked at me and puured, and I knew he was okay with, but the day we laid him the rest was one of the hardest days of my life (I am tearing up while typing this) My parents and I buried him under our sacred tree in their yard (A Laurel tree), I held him when he passed on, he was puuring and snuggling and just fell asleep.
But, there is always balance in life, a few weeks after we buried Tempest, my back doctor told me, for now he doesn't want to see me anymore. For the past 10 years I have been struggling with back problems, I have Degenerative Disk Disease, and it's so bad I cannot work. I had to stop working last May and that has also really kicked my depression and anxiety into overdrive. But, with the good news, I decided to make my life happy again. So, I have been getting healthier, I still have to be careful of my back, but there is a lot I CAN do still.
I also recently realized I needed to get back to my faith. I am truly blessed, The Lord and Lady have never left my side, I just stopped talking to them. So I came back here, to Pagan Space to try to connect with others of similar beliefs. I have connected with a few people, but it is hard for me to strike up conversations, but I am trying hard to overcome that :-).
So, that's my story, and my journey so far. I am excited to start this next Chapter