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  My life has been crazy for the past few months (I know, who's hasn't). I moved in with my boyfriend, and hour and a half away from my family and friends, and the place I grew up! That's huge for me, because I have friends that are like family, and I am close to my family. The move and change has turned out to be very good, I am learning to be be free! My boyfriend does not have the same belief system as me, but that has never been an issue.

   For the first time in my life, I am in a happy, healthy relationship. I still keep in touch with my family and friends, though I do miss them dearly. But what sent me into a bout of depression was losing my fur baby/familiar, his name was Tempest and we grew up together. He was 17 when we had to put him down, he wasn't able to keep clean (though the other cats tried to help) he wasn't eating like he should and he couldn't move without limping and wincing in pain. When I moved, I had to leave him behind, but when my parents' and I decided to put him down, I stayed with him for a week, we cuddled, and I gave him scraps of what I was eating, just like I always did. I told him what was going on, and he looked at me and puured, and I knew he was okay with, but the day we laid him the rest was one of the hardest days of my life (I am tearing up while typing this) My parents and I buried him under our sacred tree in their yard (A Laurel tree), I held him when he passed on, he was puuring and snuggling and just fell asleep. 

    But, there is always balance in life, a few weeks after we buried Tempest, my back doctor told me, for now he doesn't want to see me anymore. For the past 10 years I have been struggling with back problems, I have Degenerative Disk Disease, and it's so bad I cannot work. I had to stop working last May and that has also really kicked my depression and anxiety into overdrive. But, with the good news, I decided to make my life happy again. So, I have been getting healthier, I still have to be careful of my back, but there is a lot I CAN do still. 

    I also recently realized I needed to get back to my faith. I am truly blessed, The Lord and Lady have never left my side, I just stopped talking to them. So I came back here, to Pagan Space to try to connect with others of similar beliefs. I have connected with a few people, but it is hard for me to strike up conversations, but I am trying hard to overcome that :-).

    So, that's my story, and my journey so far. I am excited to start this next Chapter

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Comment by Ariel Ganshmi on February 5, 2016 at 2:57pm

wow what a story Kate! I too put down my beloved fur baby when her and I were both 17. She wasn't eating anymore and was getting skinnier and more unhealthy. My mother and I went together and put her down. I still tear up over it, she was very much loved by us both. Now it's been 6-7 years later and I see her every now and then running around to make sure I'm ok. I haven't had a pet I can call my own yet, since I've been having living situation struggles, but since my bf is allergic to cats my next one will be a dog. My cat [who was named Kitbird] will always be with me and the same goes for Tempest. You'll see him sooner or later I am sure.

Welcome back to your spiritual journey and welcome to PS!

Comment by Kate on February 5, 2016 at 3:47pm

Thank you so much for sharing your story, and for the support and kind words. I do see him every now and then. I am lucky, before I moved in with my bf, his fur babies adopted me as their own, and one like to snuggle ALL the time, the other enjoys petting on her terms lol, and I love them very much. They will never take Tempest' spot, but I am lucky to have them. Tempest was 17 as well, when they get to the point of not living a healthy life anymore, we have to make the tough call, and I am glad he isn't hurting anymore, but I don't think I will ever "get over" it. 

Dogs make great pets too *checks to make sure the fur babies are occupied so they don't see that I typed that*. I have always like certain breeds of dogs, as long as they aren't yappy and small, small yappy dogs make my anxiety spike lol.

Good to hear from you!

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