The Weight of Will

Ross B. Cisneros once interviewed Boyd Rice at M.I.T. He asked Rice why he had appropriated the Nazi aesthetic into his art form and performance, and how it was useful in his personal artistic expression. Without missing a beat, Rice answered with graceful words which I have witnessed coming from my own mouth many times over the past years. “Well, I like the fascist aesthetic because it implies order! I like militarism, because in the military, you have a goal you want to obtain, with tactics and strategies, thus, you obtain the goal, and most of the people I know don’t recognize any order in the world. They don’t apply any tactics or strategies to their lives when its so easy to do. Anything I want to do, I can do!, you just have to go after it in an orderly fashion.” I was reminded of this as I began to collect my thoughts on this particular Grotto issue, based on personal challenges and the methods by which one may address and cope.

Admittedly, perspective is needed to understand the challenge which I addressed, as all of you are welcome to blindly consume and accept that which society, politics, and religion spews out as truth and purpose, as truth and purpose seem to be the underlying reason for all things in existence. Or so one’s culture, leaders, and priest would have them believe. However, some few of (us) may ask if truth and reason are not to be established by one’s own standard. Some few of (us) are able to realize a greater potential in personally defining truth, reason, and existence, yet, everything up to this point is mere child’s play in terms of actual manifestation. Mindspace, however elaborate, however detailed, is just a collection of ideas with varying degrees of potential for manifestation in reality, which is in turn based entirely on one’s aptitude for the application of subtle manipulation of that which is, in to that which one wishes it to be. That is the truth, that is my will, and over all, that is the purpose of my existence. Thus the challenge is existence in and of itself, as determined by the level of existence one is willing and able to achieve.

The act of forcefully altering existence is at the core of Interrogistic sorcery, and is the greatest and only challenge. Everything else is secondary in that it must be recognized as a potential success or failure pertaining to one’s ability to make existence subject to one’s will, rather than one’s will being subject to existence. It is the point at which one comes to reject external influences that one is able to see that truly meaningful purpose lies in influencing rather than being influenced. The methods Interrogist establish are represented by (The Fire) while the standards they set in place so as to achieve this state are that which is represented by (The Stone) which is born of (The Fire). The method, or strategy, is to seek, find, and set standards which permit the growth of my superior knowledge and ability in reality, and the standard is maintained while all else is abandoned. The Fire burns away all that dose not qualify as Stone. This is the only challenge I am aware of, as well as the only purpose that I am aware of. It is the reason that I exist, and is in itself the Interrogistic Methodology.

Another metaphor that comes to mind would be the positive pressure laboratory. In this environment, scientist create a grater pressure within the lab than exist outside of the lab. The point of this environment is that one may open and close doorways without any danger of ones experimentation or procedures being contaminated by outside pollutants. If any doorway is opened, pressure is released pushing outward and not even air may enter the laboratory, thus, only that which the scientist choose to introduce is able to enter. One may do as much with the mind, permitting one to conduct psychological laboratories unknown to most of man kind. As Rice pointed out, most whom I know have little to no recognition of the fact that nearly anything might be achieved if one were to simply go about it in an orderly fashion. Much like Rice, I too am attracted to the fascist and the militant as I am one who is more than willing to adhere to a regiment in order to achieve my goals. Discipline is a requisite of both appropriation and exemption, and therefore fundamental to accepting this challenge.

Many Occultist and so called Satanist will elaborate on the topic of their personal methods pertaining to the manipulation of others, the expansion of one’s abilities, of one’s understanding, or the shattering of ones personal limitations. The thing is, posturing will always expose itself in that it will claim all the rewards of such successful campaigns in sorcery, yet, ultimately lacks any of the wounds, scars, weapons, medals, trophies, or even the uniform such warriors are known for. That which is most commonly referred to as being the (Left Hand Path) is for the most part a stage of posturing, played out on Internet mediums by those who’s perception can not realize that their claims are in themselves the evidence of their own falsehood. What is scarcely seen is the sorcerer who openly lays down their bravado and admits to the overbearing weight of one’s own will. Where among all the stories of grand accomplishment and titles do you witness one who speaks of such dedication as one who endures pain and failure so as to achieve even the slightest bit of actual knowledge or ability. Where are those who demonstrate personal sacrifice, or in all their stoic intellect, express their ability to love, cry, or give freely.

In fact the gambit of life is far more robust than any layman’s trivial understanding of sorcery. No modern presentation, film, book, or web forum is able to express the fullness of life or the fullness of the prowess of those who are able to take the reigns in their own hands. The loneliness, the isolation, pain, and loss are not mentioned by most, the reason for which is quite simply the fact that they are not isolated, and due to lacking any and all aptitude for actual sorcery, have nothing to loose in the lines of intellectual standards or the fortitude required to uphold them. What can one sacrifice when they value nothing? As I said before, claims of grandeur coming without evidence of maturity and wounds are hallow. The challenge is the ability to endure ones personal standards in a world that disregards and even attacks them. The challenge is to maintain one’s personal values and goals when no one else is able to understand them. The challenge is to endure the isolation of study during one’s life, that in death one’s word has the ears and eyes of those who recognize such wisdom, however few of them that may be. Over all the challenge is enduring the fact that when you hold The Fire, you are for the most part burned away. All that is left is The Stone of your being, and your sight is fixed on exceeding the human normos, the limitations of hubris, and the boundaries of existence as they are commonly known.

Now it ought to be addressed that this question is asked whatsoever. What I point out is the fact that even (here) in the field of occult readers and practitioners, many must ask this question, “What is a great challenge you face?” and “How do you cope?”, and my initial response is “What else?”. The challenge is existence in and of itself, as determined by the level of existence one is willing and able to achieve. Everything else equates to some degree of one’s aptitude for sorcery and one’s fortitude for endurance is the challenge and the coping mechanism. The very act of codifying a method is in fact the act of forcefully altering reality, imposing ones will on one’s internal and external existence, Interrogisma and Interrogismi. Interrogist are mutating cells in the body of existence which will transform the growth of the overall being, while other cells simply die.

Interrogist 1, accepting the challenge…