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my life is lonly without reason without ground im lost trying to find my way i wish someone could help me stop drowning i do my best i do what i can but i am not happy never have been and cant find a reason to be no i am not without faith no i am not without hope i just have no drive no will power and this makes everything so much harder

am i unlikable y cant i find true friends y dont the ones i make stay i feel like im doomed to live my life alone

i feel dead inside and it makes me think horible things do i cat on them no thats out of the question but the thoughts still exist

bad decisions made a bad life a life i loath one i wish i can trade in i look back and c my mistakes c the wrongs i have done and i try and correct them the best i can but i cant change the past i have fucked up relationships and good ones at that all for selfish reasons i have destroyed lives and caused black holes n hearts

its amasing how when my goddess caled to me it was the Morrigan ohhh how i am to much like her

how can one person destory so much yet not destroy herself

no wonder im alone no wonder i have no friends no wonder i cant be loved

i destroy everything i touch no i do not do it on pourpose nor do i want to it just happens as i have a tendancy to let my emotions override my heart maby i just need someone strong enughf to stop me from destroying who i can be

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