unwanted entities

Where to start...hm. well i know for a fact entities are comming to me through my dreams..this is not a pleasant experience. They stay with with me..i feel these entities on my back..i see them behind me. They make my sleep space uncomfortable to be in..no longer a safe feeling retreat for me.

Why are my dreams gateways and how can i protect myself in my sleep?

As im writing this im starting to sweat all over (random). But let me start from the begining. when i was about 14 or 15 or so my family joined a small native american tribe. we had medicine ceramonies and sweat lodges often i believe. During one ceramony it was discovered my family was having a lot of problems spiritually. My sister broke out with involuntary words and movements and my mother health slowly started to wane (she was losing a horrid amount of weight and was having back trouble in her late 30's). The medicine man tried to help us. This is when he told me entities were comming in through my dreams and giving me things and also about abilities i had. Being young i didnt quite understand and honestly didnt know what i could do about it..and i dont recall him ever telling me. This was also a bad time for me..i was depressed and angry most of the time and also smoking way to much pot (lol). This was the year i started seeing spirits and no most of them were not nice. They would follow me around and scare the shit out of me..say things and torment me...there were times when i was not able to breath even. i started seeing faces everywhere in everything..i couldnt get away from it. I was kicked down the stares once even. There were hords of these things (as least that was what i saw at the time) and i didnt tell anyone, i didn't know how. i blocked it out, tried telling myself i just smoked way to much and it wasn't there. i started feeling crazy. The medicine man tried helping my family but he never tried to help me. After a while i was kicked from the tribe ( i was friends with these two girls in the tribe and me and their family had a falling out big time) and i moved away from my mother to live with my father. I would still visit her often and was still constantly tormented and my mothers health still in pretty rough shape ( she was like hugging a bag of bones). And damnit the medicine man blamed me for it all. He said i was possessed and killing my mother. He forbid her from talking to me and said it was for my own good. He didnt do anything for me except make my family afraid of me..it was awful and i got no help whatsoever.

I am not in so rough of shape as i was then. my mother realized it was not right to stop talking to her daughter and i got over the worst of problems.But i still feel things that i dont want around me and feel thinggs comming in through my dreams. i feel drained and deppressed a lot of the time. I cant seem to shake these things!

Can anyone help me? i know i really need a teacher, someone in person who could help me..but online advice is a start.

do i sound like a madwomen in this? lol i hope not..this is all 100% truth (though the story is made 10 times shorter then it is). But thsnk you for taking your time to read this.

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Comment by Ms.Pouncer-Curiousier&Curiousier on September 11, 2012 at 4:38pm: I wonder why there was no gift of a talisman, or a dream catcher.... or anything?

What tribe, if you do not mind me asking?

Have you tried any crystals, metals or herbs? (Medicine bag basically)

Comment by Emerald on September 11, 2012 at 5:11pm: there was no gift...all he said was when the time comes i will tell you what you need to know. i forget the the name..it was a small tribe in the new england area. i have some small crystals..i burn sage...but honestly i am not practiced and i am not so sure as what to do.

Comment by Kixs on September 12, 2012 at 6:00am: Well to start with little one, sounds like you had a totally boggus medicine man. Telling a child she was making her mother sick, what a prick. Possesed with evil spirits, pfft...forget what he said, giiwanimo(deceiver to put it nicely) is what he is.

You need to first off make a dream catcher for your bedroom and that of your childrens room too. Put them by the windows and above your beds. Do one of the 8 star type. You can find the instructions on the internet. It's really easy. Use nothing but natural materials though, they have the power of giichi-manidoo(Great Spirit) in them. think nothing but happy good thoughts while making them, it will make them stronger. The first one will take you awhile, but they get easier with practice. Willow or oak for the hoop, willow is best if you can get it. Hemp for the string, easier to tie also. You can get some natural suede cord from Wal-Mart if you want. Take a walk with those beautiful children and find some natural bird feathers, something with a happy song to sing, don't get the dyed one's from the store. I also like using sugar maple leaves on mine, but they have to be changed often. Oh yeah, make sure you hang them away from the walls so they can turn. That's important. Many hang them like decorations on their walls, they are pretty, but they can't do their job, they need air, water and sun light to do their job.

Do a good cleansing on your living space and fill it with love and joy and peace. Burn sage and sweetgrass incences if you can't get the real herbs. It's ok, it's the smell you want. When your done, burn lavendar and rose to keep it peaceful in your home. specially in your bedroom.

I will send you a friend request so I can give you instructions on how to make a simple amulet and tailsman. Amulet for your home and bedroom and a tailsman to carry and sleep with. Also some chant prayers to help the spirits leave you alone.

You shouldn't have suffered so long, stupid medicine man wantabe, pisses me off.

Comment by Emerald on September 12, 2012 at 9:39pm: looking back on my whole experience with the tribe there was def something up with the whole lot of them.red flags everywhere. not to mention the medicine man was constantly ill himself. I am pretty angry with what happened, so much pain i did not need to go through.

But the dream catchers is an excellent idea thank you! i plan to go to my mothers and make them with my family so we can all have them.

I have sage to burn in my home and sweet smelling incenses.

thank you so much. I just dont want them around me and my family...i am carrying a lot of pain that is not needed and not mine that i really want to just let go. i am trying to make a peaceful envirment for my children without them following me around all the time. i dont know what it is they want.

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