Words from a dear friend

I thought that you might appreciate the thought of using the mouth for various purposes as relates to another participant with you. That is why I say that I am a Lesbian in a man's body, as I like that stuff better than actually having sex ... but maybe that is covering until I can get my back and hip on line again. Will keep you posted ...
I have an application in for Disability coverage, but will not know if they are even going to consider it or if I qualify for a couple of weeks yet. Think that would really help, with confidence if nothing else. Although, for some reason, the confidence seems to be just fine.
Spreading the love has a whole different context for a lesbian, I would think ... and I appreciate it completely. The idea of two women being together would not necessarily be something that I would want for an exclusive diet visually, as I just don't relate to the sensations, and, considering that so many vibrating penis-like products seem to be out there and being used all the time, why the hell not go straight to the source .. unless one is picking such schmucks that the guy attached to the penis is just too much to tolerate. And, the dirtbags seem to have a leg up with the bag boy image that every woman wants, then bitches about to their progeny as she raises the kid by herself. Always blows me away as someone who has always been a bit more stable (not that the last couple of years are good examples) that women can make these horrific choices .. and it is always the guys fault. He was probably the world's biggest anal pore from the start, but he had a 14-inch personality, or whatever, so everything was just fine. His police record, educational level, intelligence, cleanliness, personal habits, lifestyle, addictions and the rest did not come into play cause "I Luuvvv himm."
Women should look at a guy like that and choose blow jobs and cum on the chest as their sexual activity of choice ... at least they aren't poisoning a next generation to be bitter at all men because their mother picked a psychopath for inseminate her.
Hmm .. did I say that out loud????
At least you had to go to work and do nothing. Isn't that just a step up from having to work and do something?

now when  we'll call him Jim. When jim wrote this we've been talkign about human sexuality and my prefrence of women to men and i have to admit for a 61 year old guy, he actually gets it. well as much as he can, and like alot of things my elder friends tell me, it gets me thinking. then again he is an erotic photographer n.n (man what a way to spend your retirment, snapping pictures of 25-35 year old models that want nothing more than to take their clothes off for you :P  )

Why don't i like being with men?

well its not really so simple as that i don't like it I love cock and falic toys as much as the next, but its who is behind it that i'm often times just not attracted too. some just can't understand this, they look at me and see someting i'm not. when those that get it like Jim here look at me and see who i am.

my girlfriend for example has never in her life dated a man, and before me would have never thought of dating anyone that still had dangly bits, yes yes i'mm pre opp as if you my friends didn't know lol, i don't hide it, i'mstill in the army for pete sake, though i'll be starting hormones in this winter after i move to cali, and awayfrom anyone and everyone that knew me as a "Guy" which those that knew me will attest i was never one of the guys.

but that does bring in a nother point, how do i deal with my love life, well. its complicated, as much of a hound dog as i make myself off to be, my girlfriend knows i'm not liek that at all, i'd rather curl up cuddle and watch a movie or read a book than to have sex. i'm a very intimate person i always have been. but then again i define sex in very much an old world term same with making love, i can make love to someone htat i care for without ever taking our clothes off, we can also count that as sex, because to me they are both intencely gratifying intimate moments that are to be shared with a loved one, pet,slave,girlfriend,boyfriend,husband,wife,ect ect ect ect. . . . . .

right now i'm in a very happy fufilling relationship, though my needs will likely change. i'm not as much of a slut as i used to be, for instance i don't feel the need to sleep with someone just to validate my own self worth n.n

I've spent alot of my adult life trying and grasping to figure out who i am, and it wasn't easy. infact its been the second most difficult thing to do ever for me, the first most dificult was telling my 6 year old htat mommy was in hevean and was not going to be comeing to visit anymore.. That is a pain i wish on no man, woman, or other.

anyways this has been a good day so ar so i'm going to get back to work and actually try and acomplish somthing n.n

blessed be because i'm going to be me n.n

Lexi Marie