Blessed greetings from the Great Lakes area,
I have been having similar problems finding people to share with for about the past five years or so. I'm still focused on the path, and I don't see how I might have changed to scare my "friends" off, but the group that I had been close to sort of fell away. I used to think that everyone just got too busy. That seems like a cop-out. The group that my wife Nancy was with also went apart about the same time.
Finding folks of like mind through this "space" has been good for me, and somewhat changed the energy. Several times this past month or so, people have introduced themselves as Pagan. That has never been the case before, I'm hoping that this underlies a deeper change in the psychic "weather". Have you, by chance read James Endredy's Ecoshamanism? It has been one of my most recent books. As I read the first two thirds, I realized that I had done all of those things intuitively as a child growing up, and that several of the exercises are part of my normal routine. I am considering putting together a group to do the live burial rite. I did similar exercises in caves and "tombs" that I dug as a child, but never with a guide or the level of commitment that I have now.
About four years ago, my wife and I started a local not-for-profit, ECO-Tours of Wisconsin, That takes folks to plant-ins that have a strong eco-educational focus. We have taken hundreds of ecotourists to plant at dozens of sites around Northeast Wisconsin. We have planted over fifteen thousand trees to date, enough to reforest over fifty acres! Planting season is nearly upon us here, and I am still on the prowl for more green energy (dollars) to buy trees for planting this summer.
If you are ever near the Great Lakes, feel free to visit or take a tour with us!
Peace sister, Tony "Saladman" Saladino
be happy that you know your heart.because after all there are so many out there that do not have the sight to see.and i leave you with this.maybe the re is a profound reason you have been alone?in many fields of practice there is good reason to be alone.your energy is yours and not poluted with negative energy.i have traveled a pathway of both light and dark.though true users know that light is for learning ,dark is for power!in my youth i learned at terrible cost.now i travel the grey path or middle if you like.my cheer to you,you shall find many friends and fellow practicerners all here!enjoy your stay.....the dark knight.....1 Horror Pictures at satanspace.com