My First Channeled Spirit Experience

Wow where do I begin.. For a long time I have been with out friends and here a while back I had decided to post on KIJIJI Tarot card readings for donations for parties and so on. I had the add up for a few weeks. I was contacted by a womans group here in the town where I live for readings for there group for something fun to do. Well one of the girls was kicked out of the group for the suggestion of doing something like that. Ok must be a Christian group. One of the ladies had contacted me thru e-mail and I had waited a few days to call and talk to her so that I could get over the jet lagg that I was feeling from coming back from Texas not to mention the change in the energy for fall and the fact that I spent a month in a Texas sea level of 489 ft and I come back to Canada and I have to deal with 800 ft.. and the pressure on the sinuses for the next few days. I wanted to go and meet Judy but something told me that I needed to wate. I was really excited to be meeting new people. I said to my self well I feel better on the 24. Well that did not work out the way I wanted it to. On the 26 I felt like I been in a swimming pool for 12 hours and I could not walk and felt very heavy and drained. Screw that I guess I am not going today either. I got a chance to meet her I called her and talked to her for a while today and she asked if I was doing any thing. I had said not really and she had asked how do you feel about me picking you up around 4:30 and I was like YEAH sure ! In the process of me finishing dishes and pulling out dinner left overs. I kept hearing voices say you need to take your tarot cards and your Pendulum. I kept mentally saying no I am just going over for a visit. I get to the house and walk in the door and I see her nieces standing there in the living room. I look over at the youngest and see a hunched over lady with silver hair that is see thru.. I had asked her who she was and I did not get any thing. I asked Ashley and she had said my Aunt.. and started to tear up..Well we had talked for a while and I was picking up lots of sadness from her and I asked Judy to take me back to my house (Hangs head in shame) to go get my tarot cards..Normally when I read cards I have information that I am picking up by who ever is standing next to me. This time nothing so I broke out my moon stone mint green pendulum my mom got me in Texas at Sister Earth and Sister Sea as a going away gift. I showed ash how to use it and that she needed to open up and trust in what she was doing and what was going on. I drew a circle with yes and no on paper and asked her to start asking questions and at first it was slow to respond and I said just relax and focus she took a deep breath she asked her dad if he was angry with how things were going with the family and slow movement yes..Are you happy with mom and swinging up and down for yes to moving to a fast NO..She said Do you miss us. when she asked this I had cold chills rush over me and take my breath away and it moved to yes. I had heard a voice ask me can I come closer and I said yes and in that instant I had a massive wave of sadness drowned me and I began crying uncontrollably hyperventilating. I felt as if I was downing I felt like I had cinder blocks tied to my legs and tossed in to water I could not breath I was hearing and seeing all this stuff and colors like looking thru a kaleidoscope. Rushing foward while sitting in a chair with out moving. places, people, anger frustration sadness all at once.. I felt as if I was going to pass out. I asked Garry to step back it was to much for me to handle. Please step back and the plunging deep in to darkness feeling I was experiencing disappeared but I still felt the sadness and dispar. He expressed to me how very sorry he was for all the things that had happened that he was proud of his girls. I just blurted out I miss you I want to be with you I am so sorry I am so sorry please for give me. My body was so hot and burning that I was swetting really bad. When I took a deep breath I mentally asked him to please move out of my space when I asked I felt something let go of me. The massive wet blanket that I had on me was lifted and I felt I could breath. I cried a bit more and realized I had a massive headach and my body was numb I was drained. I had noticed that it took me a few minutes to get my sence of direction back too.

If any one read this I would love some information to better protect my self or any kind of advice. I had a lady in Texas tell me that I was geting ready to experience my big first spirtual experience and that she could see the changes going on in my energy feild that were prepairing me for the next step of my spirtual growth because of how open my heart was. This was a 4 days before I left Texas.