my first child, my first loss.

i was 9 weeks and now well im not. idk how to handle this. i keep having dreams about babies. in the dream theyre either mine or a kid pops outa no where and i start to take care of it. I cant stand to look at other mothers and theyre kids now. its just hurts.

my sister went thru the same thing and seemed to pick up better then i did. Im just lost right now. i dont like being around my friends yet i hate to be alone. i wish there was a cure for something like this. but when everything keeps building up how are you supposed to just move on.

6 Comments

Comment by Mystikal Summer Starr on May 21, 2008 at 1:43pm: I am so sorry for your loss. There is nothing I can say that can take away the pain that your feeling. I know that talking about it is better then holding it in even though it dosn't feel like it right now. I lost a daughter when she was 7 and I held it in so long in till I burst. So talk when you are able and to who ever will listen. If I can do anything just ask I am here for you.
Many Blessings dear one
Mystikal Summer Starr

Comment by ajagsfairy on May 21, 2008 at 1:45pm: I'm soooo sorry for your loss i know it it feels i miscarried my first also. It is hard but it will get easier with time and it doesn't mean that you wont be able to have more babies in the future. Its hard to know why these things happen and it is very hard at first i know exactly what you mean by the dreams that was the toughest part for me too. Hang in there and know your not alone. I don't know what more to say other then i send my deepest sympathies!

Blessings

Comment by Tigeress on May 21, 2008 at 1:49pm: I am soo sorry for your loss hon! Time will ease your pain. I completely understand how you are feeling. I agree with mystical summer star....talk when you are able to anyone who will listen...you have family that are here for you!! For we all are family

Comment by Rev Mystic Witch on May 21, 2008 at 2:19pm: deepest sympathies to you and yours. I have lost 2 children so I know how that feels. Time is the only thing that helps. It will be almost 5 years since the loss of my first child and 1 1/2 years soon of the 2nd child I lost so your not alone anytime you wish to talk just mesage me.
many blessings

Comment by Sarah Rosier on May 21, 2008 at 2:21pm: thank for all your support and kind words. I wish you all the best and many blessings.

Blessed Be

Comment by peace lily on May 21, 2008 at 9:14pm: I am so so sorry for you loss. Maybe, when it feels right and you are ready, you could have a passing ritual for your baby, to honor him and let him know you love him and miss him. Rest in the arms of the Goddess, grieve in whatever way and however long you must. Wishing you much comfort and peace!
Peace Lily