Within the Light of the Waxing Moon...

My Messenger Screen Name is:
"jbshadowrose"

I'm a very different kind of human being. But very human, at that. Nothing more, nothing less.

My view on this world is, as with everyone, seen in a different perspective compared to what most would view as "mundane."

I eat, drink, and breathe just like the next person. I love, regret, cry and laugh. But with a higher sense.

To see beyond love, regret, hate, and emotion, and to see the boundaries which lie so closely beneath them all, is something I believe I am blessed with.

All humans have this ability - most, though, choose to ignore it as they're lost within mundane priorities. They become numb to their own sense of subconscious guidance - their inner-self becomes suffocated.

For some, I would say that because of this, their ability is lost forever.

For others, I would say that this sense is what truly guides them. Their troubles are addressed by the Universe, and they are able to hear and interpret it's language.

Any normal human can learn, embrace, and flourish with this sense and understanding. For those who are lost - listen. These words are simply a glimpse - every answer you'll ever need is all around you, and more significantly, already within you.

For those who possess this understanding, you know who you are, and you walk with me on the same path - treading the same ground in the same direction, but each with different destinations that are, at the same time, one ultimate ending; an eternal beginning.

Heh, well if you really want to know, I guess I'll spill a little bit. All around, I love to laugh and to make others laugh as well. I love my friends, i know they'll always be there for me. Spending time with them is one of my top priorities.

This life holds nothing to me but the wisdom of endings. We are born, only to live, only to die. We love, only so that we can know such great a pain.We are, so that we cannot be. Finding ones self would take a lifetime, the answer at death, the discovery at it's end. So truly, what is life? It is but an ending. I walk these days with age an illusion, for time has no end if all are beginnings. So who are you; who am I? Is there more to a mortal life? Searching for this answer defies immortality, though the search for self surpasses this journey. To find ones self within one's own death is a lifetime, to find ones self within the darkness is immortality. So the question is, which do you choose? I suffer for an answer no more, for I have chosen, and I have chosen darkness -- where my journey truly has no end.

Heh. My friends mean everything to me. Like I've stated before, I would be nothing without them. I've gained many, and lost many. I sometimes hang with different groups of friends, and sometimes that group doesn't get along with my other group of friends {You all know what I mean...} Some may say its a pathetic attempt to befriend everyone, but you know what? Fuck you, I'm friends with them for a reason, and just because you can't see the good in them, doesn't mean I can't. I'm friends with my friends because they are truly great people, that have somehow affected my life for the better, and if you can't respect that, then maybe you aren't a friend, like I thought you were. But despite those differences, I prevail to have my friends, regardless of stupid rumors, past mistakes, and etc. But do NOT get me wrong -- the people I dislike, not matter how greatly, I have DAMN good reasoning for it. And if you say that one of my friends is a bad person, then I guess I'll have to wait and see that fact for myself. I'll learn.

Despite what some people may think, I don't hate anyone. Greatly dislike, yes, but I can never truly hate someone. I may have in the past, but I got over that stupid phase, and realize that no matter what someone has done, theres still good in that person. I may not talk to them, and I may try to avoid them, but that doesn't mean I hate them. I mean, damn, I've gone from hating certain people to being one of their best fuckin' friends. 50% of the time, I'll eventually get over a dislike for somone, but somtimes I wont. Big deal.

I love to write. I've been writing since I can remember, whether it be short stories, full stories, poems, etc. I've been published by Noble House and poetry.com, but I think those are both money scams. I currently have 300+ poems, about 6 stories (some finished, most not,) and am inthe process of self-publishing through Xlibris -- a division of Random House.

First and foremost, I'm not Wiccan/Pagan because I like to burn incense, light a whole bunch of candles and claim to hold the very essence of the Universe in my hands, all the while renacting a scene from Charmed or The Craft. I am Wiccan because I have established connection with Deity - the Lord and Lady walk with me in my path, and I hear their voice and messeges in the wind, the heavy thunder, the rushing of a river or even in the subtle song of bird. I find peace at the sight of lush, green fields, a blooming flower, the morning sun and the night's moon. I hold the God and Goddess dear to my heart, as Earth Mother, and Father God.

I've always been interested in the mysteries of the Universe. To make a long story short, I stumbled across Wicca at the age of 11, and have studied ever since. I "converted", so to speak, shortly after obtaining a fair amount of knowledge, on Samhain. I love my religion, and love to teach my Craft and to learn, because learning truly takes a lifetime. And the next.

I'm a firm believer of destiny and pre-destination. We all are born into this life to fullfill a certain purpose, and I believe everything happens for a reason. Yes, you can control your fate, but ultimately, you cannot escape it in the end. Everyone is born into a life because they are continuing their journey from a previous life, or they are new to life, and have not yet had their soul go through the cycle of reincarnation. Yes. This is my belief.

Cyc
:: Vampirism ::
{Sanguine, Psychic, and Succubi. I'm not about the fake shit, sorry.}
:: Lycanthropy ::
:: Therianthropy ::
:: Wicca ::
{My religion}
:: Writing
{Yeah, I'm published, sorta.}
:: Rain ::
:: Listening to Nightwish during a storm ::
:: Silver/platinum/white blonde hair ::
:: Reading ::
:: Pool ::
{yeah, that’s right, I'm actually good at something.}
:: Cheese ::
:: Wine ::
:: Storms ::
{And yes, I have my reasons. Its not just cliche.}
:: ROSES ::
:: My phone ::
:: The internet ::
:: Getting to know people who are actually worth it ::
:: The cold spots of a bed in summer ::
:: The warm spots in the bed during winter ::
:: Being within the arms of the one I love ::
:: My eyeliner ::
:: Cats ::
:: Wolves & Dolphins, but all animals as well ::
:: Angel-hair spaghetti ::
:: Spongebob Squarepants
{This show ACTUALLY makes me HAPPY, I don't like it just because everyone else does. So stop your fuckin BITCHING. }::

Wanna hear something scary? I DON'T LIKE NIRVANA! They're overrated, and their music is boring. There. Kill me.

Seriously, H.I.M. sucks. He’s not metal at all. Love rock perhaps, but not metal. He also tries way too hard to be “goth.”

Ok people, wearing striped socks, hot pink with/on black, arm warmers, band tees [with] Tripp pants does not make you gothic. Neither does listening to H.I.M., MCR, AFI, or shit like that. Also, thinking you're a vampire because you like biting, the taste of blood, the dark and "cant" go out in the sun, you're pale, and have slightly sharper canines than usual is bullshit, and does not make you gothic OR a real vampire for that matter. And if you think liking/loving/obsessing over The Nightmare Before Christmas gives you uber goth credits, you need to get over it. Yeah, I'll admit, when I was little I liked TNBC when it first came out, and watched it quite alot, but I got over it. Its become a huge trend and stereotype now that can be found EVERYWHERE, even to the point that little possies of TNBC lovers will only befriend someone because they have something with TNBC on it. No one else can back me up on this, except a few, and for that I cherish the fact that for once, one of my opinions differ from this community.

On that note, the only thing I like about TNBC anyway is the music. Thats it.

The new term of "Goth" just establishes beliefs of a different outlook and lifestlye. True "Gothic" is just that -- a lifestyle. Not a person. Does that make them Gothic? Perhaps, whatever you will, but either way, it doesnt change who that person is, just shape their true self. {Only if, of course, they know what the fuck they're talking about.} But then again, I dont spend my time people watching. Just thinking. Sorry for my ramblings, but I was given the perfect opprotunity!